weekend yang sungguh membosankan..
kata bijak pandai, mindset kita yang sebenarnya mengawal emosi kita. kalau kita kata bosan, maka bosanlah..
ntahla.. malas pulak nak cakap pasal bijak pandai. nak cakap pasal realiti kehidupan. memanglah kita dikawal oleh mindset, tapi kadang2 penat juga jadi macam bagus je.. nak lepas perasaan, berpijak di alam nyata.
hari ni oncall. so was yesterday, and the day before. dari mula kerja hingga sekarang, hati kurang selesa bila oncall. nak beseronok dengan family pun tak senang. walhal dah jadi specialist ni, tak de la teruk mana.. tapi hari ni ada 2 emergency op waiting. it's 5.30 pm, and still waiting for ot call.
this would be the first time em. case would be performed at night at daycare ot. yes, the eye department had moved totally yo daycare ot. no matter whether its in-patient or day care case; no matter whether its emergency or elective. i don't mind doing cases at night, but to do it at daycare OT is.. something i never agreed. menyusahkan banyak pihak..
and i AIN'T like it. period.
bila tengah sengsara tunggu ot panggil ni, mula lah berangan... kalaulah aku kaya..
kalau aku kaya..
- aku dah tak nak kerja makan gaji lagi. mungkin dah tak nak kerja hospital lagi. kalau boleh nak jadi housewife je.. (impian yang entah bila akan jadi nyata..)
- aku nak buat rumah idaman.. not necessarily a big house, but cosy enough for my family. i need a wonderful kitchen, splendid family room, good landscape and a wonderful garden with patios and beautiful lawn for us to relax around. i am a homely type person. i want a lovely home..
- settle all debts. and perhaps buy more land and shoplots.. (phew.. banyak duit??)
- i would go for haj, and insyaAllah umrah as often as i could.
- i would travel.. and see the world. europe, new zealand, turkey and the middle east, south korea and japan.. (dream on, babe!!)
- i would donate and renovate the tahfiz center kat kampung. provide all the facilities needed, and make sure its running smoothly under good administration
- i would make sure my parents enjoy their remaining life in whatever way they would love to..
- i would attend baking classes, and learn to bake cakes and pastry and make homemade bread and buns for my family.
- i would learn how to prepare all the traditional dishes and kueh that i have always enjoyed eating.
- i would make sure all my children received the best education ever.. and help them become wonderful, successful people.
- i would start a business of my own.. maybe open-up a halal and toyyib bakery with a cosy eating corner; or start a superb laundry service untuk manusia2 yang sentiasa sibuk dan isteri2 yang malas dan tak ada masa untuk uruskan laundry
- open-up a catering service , eg. "mangkuk-tingkat".com in which peolpe would order food online, and kita hantar ke rumah mereka. sekarang ni sumer orang kerja and balik lewat. this is a good business.. asalkan food sedap and service bagus, i'm sure people won't mind paying for the service.
ahh... giler berangan ntah ape2..
kesimpulannya, i'm tired of waiting for the OT to call. am already hungry, and will go down and get myself a bowl of bubur lambuk that i have always loved.. specially prepared by my mother in law.
masuk 45 nanti, nak mintak option bersara awal. boleh tak cik abang?? tolonglah... izinkan saya jadi housewife.. kita bukan nak kaya sangat pun.. (ohh.. what a contradictory statement!!)
