bagaikan pungguk rindukan bulan..

25th November 1998 - the day we tied the knot. happy 12th anniversary!!

any surprises?? NO.

he need to be reminded. and these dates are never important for him. too bad he married a person yang boleh ingat almost all the dates... haha.. but all thru the years i've learnt not to expect anything from him. buat sakit hati je merajuk... bukan ade yang nak pujuk pun.

balik kerja, i called him, gave him a hint... he was guessing something but i know, dia memang tak ingat langsung. just received his text message.. asking me out tonite, nak ambik hati la tu. just don't be late.. i hate waiting. it ruins my mood.

the children is at my mom's house in KB. so, its really quiet at home... sunyi, sepi. and i have both my laptop and desktop on, next to each other... playing games!! both games running at real time, and i need to attend to the tasks, one after another. besides my siblings, rasanya tak de perempuan lain yang still sibuk main games at this age. haha... modern mom! at least, it keeps me busy..

my sisters are going to new zealand in 2 weeks time, attending Nuha's convo in Wellington, and visiting Dhuha in Dunedine as well.. hajat di hati nak ikut, but i am not allowed to do long travelling... at least not in these first few months. wishing to go to sydney next march. hubbyby macam tak berapa nak bagi... but since lambat lagi, kita diamkan dulu. nanti bila dah masuk january, kita mention balik.

initial plan was to go for a holiday in sabah this year, but since i'm pregnant, kena la kensel. kalo gi sabah, mesti nak gi mount kinabalu, nak visit taman negara, nak gi jalan ke pulau2 snorkelling. semuanya aktiviti lasak... so, kena tangguh dulu. then, ingat nak bw the children to singapore december ni, jalan2 sentosa island, visit universal studio, etc. but hubbyby tak nak. finally , we are going to malacca.. tak pe lah, biar anak2 kenal historical places. ingat nak ajak hanif tengok harry porter or megamind, or maybe sofea would be interested to watch rapunzel...

7.27 pm.... yang di tunggu belum tiba.. :(

kenangan terindah

selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun..
aku mampu untuk mengenangmu

bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau
kenangan yang terindah
dalam hidupku..

namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah..

down with a flu..

developed fever yesterday morning after i had my morning shower. sejuk sangat agaknya. was shivering in the ward while doing my ward round. got myself PCM and Loratidine. balik rumah, had nasi kerabu.. makan ubat dan terus pengsan.

this morning woke up, feverish still. nose blocked, rhinorhhoea and suara sengau satu macam. loratidine tu macam sedikit pun tak de effect. requested EL for the day.

sungguh takut nak mandi pagi tadi. so i waited till 11 baru mandi. tiba2 pukul 12 perut lapar tiba2, dan perlu diisi segera. semenjak dua menjak ni begitulah... cepat lapar dan mesti makan stat. otherwise, bisa lembik with all the hypo symptoms. nasib baik roti canai yg pagi tadi ada lebih, so... kita habiskan sekeping setengah tu. tak sampai satu jam, hubbyby pulang dengan nasi kukus.... thank you, darling!! magicnya kasih sayang suami.. lepas makan nasi kukus tu terus rasa macam dah nak baik. my nose definitely terasa ringan..

does it take so long for loratidine to work? it has been more than a day since i took it..

it's raining..

anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain..

pernah mandi hujan?

rain is so nostalgic to me... it brings the memories of my wonderful childhood days in Taman Guru. it reminds me of...

* keseronokan tidur beramai2 dgn kakak2 sambil bercerita itu ini di dalam gelap sementara menunggu mata lelap
* keseronokan mencetuskan idea2 kreatif mengisi musim cuti sekolah di musim hujan. since tak leh main kat luar rumah, we created a lot of games among ourselves
* bangun pagi dan merenung ke luar rumah melihat hujan masih mencurah2 dan melihat pokok2 besar terutama pokok kelapa bergoyang mengikut pukulan angin kencang
* gembiranya bila air longkang mengalir laju sambil saya dan adikberlumba2 membuat dan melayarkan bot2 kertas
* sengaja suka nak berpayung ke luar rumah especially ke padang bola di sebelah rumah, di mana ada banyak lopak2 air
* bestnya cuaca sejuk dan sungguh liat nak mandi
* satu family enjoying the tv program sambil minum tea dan makan kuih yang mak buat
* saya selalu terkenang sepupu mak datang dari kampung bawak ubi dan pisang... dan mak akan rebus ubi kayu dan ubi keledek dan juga pisang tersebut.. lazat.. sambil minum kopi atau teh
* kami jakun banjir, dan cukup seronok naik kereta menyusuri kawasan banjir dan tengok kawasan2 yang ditenggelami banjir

it has been raining for about a week. last few days, the sun came out dan sempatlah basuh baju and jemur kain. tapi malam tadi hujan kembali lebat.

i was called for an emergency OT at 11pm last nite. it was raining heavily + a very strong wind. merangkak2 bawak kereta dlm hujan, dan terasa badan bagai hampir melayang ketika berjalan laju ke teduhan. basah walau berpayung. kembali ke rumah hampir jam 2 pagi.

woke up with a strange voice and a tight and dry nasopharynx. kena hujan sikit dah nak demam. the signs of less immunity and ageing..

well, life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain..