reality hurts!!

don't let someone become a priority in your life...

when you are just an option in theirs!

arghh!!!

ini entry emo.

i'm sick of it! nauseated! pissed off!

first day at work after raya.... and i felt sooo... sick of it!!!

people say... too many cooks spoil the soup. but the soup is already spoilt even before it's brought to the stove.

i need the soup to be extra-hot! baru ade kick.

my memory

still feverish and not feeling good. took EL today.

alone at home with nothing much that i can do. watched winter sonata... such a sweet love story. here's a video clip from one of the beautiful songs in the series.



isn't it beautiful?

sick, sick, sick!

it was a bright saturday morning. but it turned cloudy by mid-day, and the rain started falling.. now it's sunny again. hot.

the weather is unpredictable. so does our life. i was well and kicking last 2 days, but started to have fever last nite. high grade. running and stuffy nose. sore throat. cough till i vomit.

woke up with a lot of things to be done in my mind today. the washing machine had been working very hard since i returned home yesterday. loads and loads of a week of dirty clothes. early this morning, i went out to hang the clothes at 6.30am. hmm... semangat betul nak berkemas hari ni.

but everything turned sour. by 8 am, i felt so sick, cold inside, but muka rasa panas berbahang. after the morning shower, i was in my all-black baby-T and pants, put on my striped sweater and had a quick breakfast. begged hubbyby not to go to work, but as usual... he is needed at amethyst. pity the children, ummi is too sick to layan them.spent the whole morning in bed.

and all my plans for house cleaning... remains as plans.

still feverish, tapi dah boleh bangun. looks like i need to take leave tomorrow.

may i get well soon...

being 38!

September 7, 1971 - the day I was born. my sister-in-law, Era, was also born on the same date, but in the year 1978.

ha.. happy birthday to me! tak malu wish diri sendiri. tak pe... hidup ni musti gumbira selalu, baru hati senang. so how does it feel to be 38?

alhamdulillah, I thank Allah for being able to wake up today and reach 38 years of life. syukur alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat yang dianugerahkan, setiap rezeki, kesihatan yang baik, keluarga yang bahagia dan sentiasa memahami serta segala nikmat kehidupan yang tidak terkata.

do I feel old more matured? that is a MUST question. well.. after all that you have been through, sebenarnya, you tak sedar pun you makin tua. you are just cruising life at it's best. but as a woman, bila badan penat seharian kerja + all the housework, before retired to bed tu, memang terasa penat and baru terasa tua. but i'm still energetic, nonetheless.

if given a choice, I would wish to stay at the age of 35. why 35 and not 25? it depends on what matters most in your life. to me, at 35, alhamdulillah, I manage to get almost every basic things that I wish in life - married with a pair of kids, i became a specialist at 33, manage to get myself some hard-earned assets including a piece of land, a double-storey bungalow and a car. life was more stable financially and i found myself more confident, more matured and more calm. rational, practical and sensible.

yes, 35 is not the age of youth, but again, no matter what you do, you'll grow old. nature's law. so, i wish to grow old gracefully. i am not afraid to be old, and never afraid to mention my age.

but, if people asked my age, i would answer this way - i'm 33 + 5 years of maturity and experience.

10 years ago, at 28, i asked myself, what have i accomplished so far? tengoklah, apa yang anda cita-citakan. muda-muda dulu memang ambitious, nak buat itu-ini, but you'll reach a stage when you realize what matters most in your life. for a sportsmen/women, age 28 and above is already considered a veteran, and the performance would slowly goes down.

birthday wish - i wish many happy returns, good health, rezeki yang halal, usia yang dimanafaatkan, kehidupan yang diberkati, nikmat kebahagiaan, keluarga yang memahami dan bahagia, career yang baik, interesting and enjoyable, and being surrounded by the people that i love most, my hubbyby, my children, my family and my wonderful colleagues and friends - without whom i am nobody. also, to always be in the right path, and showered by His taufiq & hidayah in whatever i do.

wish-list tahun ni masih ada beberapa yang belum tercapai - including a baby, and a journey to the holy city. masih mengharap.

enjoyed myself with a facial treatment and body scrub + sauna just now. ehm.. refreshing! gotta get myself a chocolate cheese cake today, and a wonderful iftar.

thank you for being a follower to my humble blog, hope you enjoy reading it. wish me all the best in my life and the future. luv ya.

my 100th post

time really flies...

sedar tak sedar, i have come to my 100th post/entry. hmm... dah banyak rupanya kita menulis yek.

(gambar hiasan... lupa lak nak ambik gambar semalam)

ok, sempena bulan puasa and meraikan "mummy returns to the kitchen", kita nak berkongsi recipe black pepper chicken yang kita masak semalam.

ingredients: (sorrylah... kuantiti agak2 sendirilah, kita masak pakai agak2 dan sesedap rasa je..)

1. chicken... quantity as needed

2. garlic and onions

3. black pepper (kalau nak extra hot, letak lebih sikit!)

4. ginger

5. oyster sauce, soy sauce, tomato sauce

6. salt n sugar - secukup rasa.

cara masak:

a) tumbuk bawang putih, halia and lada hitam. then perapkan pada ayam bersama garam and oyster sauce. (lagi lama perap, lagi best). dah ready nak masak, barulah ayam tu digorengkan, jangan sampai garing.

b) to prepare the sauce - mayang bawang putih, bawang besar and halia. pas tu, tumiskan... then masukkan serbuk lada hitam. kemudian tambah oyster sauce, kicap, tomato sauce dan sedikit gula. kemudian, barulah ditambahkan ayam yang telah digorengkan tadi. tambahkan air... kalau nak ada kuah, tapi bagi pekat sikit baru best. sebelum di angkat, tambahkan bawang besar yang telah dimayang, tomato biji dan cili merah yang sudah dipotong.

senangkan? kalau nak guna daging, lepas tumis bawang besar/garlic/ginger/pepper, terus masukkan daging, dan goreng daging sampai empuk (meaning that daging tak perlu digoreng dulu sebelum tu).

cubalah untuk berbuka puasa. gerenti sedap sehingga menjilat pinggan, sebagaimana sofea dan hanif semalam.

selamat berbuka!