all the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on..
"sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. there is a time for silence. a time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. and a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over" ~ Gloria Naylor
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
the time traveller's wife
wow!! about 2 weeks kita berjaya menyepi dari dunia cyber. baik blogging mahupun fb. achievement tu..
btw, last week was quite a sad week. after a day learning that a fellow blogger is fighting death in ICU, she finally died.. due to a metastatic breast cancer. she suffered the disease for 8 years. she wrote her experiences in her blog.. i cried for her for two consecutive days.. and today, reading elviza's writing (blog: write away) an obituary on her brings back the tears.. may Dalilah Tamrin aka Raden Galoh be placed in Jannah. you can visit her blog and read all her wonderful posts at http://onebreastbouncing.blogspot.com/ and at facebook.
"out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars." ~ Khalil Gibran
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selama menyepi ni, i have been reading. lately, i would ensure i read at least a few pages before going to sleep. lepas baca buku utk sofea, i would read to myself, sambil tunggu mata ngantuk. tv pun dah jarang tengok, kecuali rancangan kanak2. dan i'm back into games. haha.. tapi now dah mula rasa boring ngan game tu coz dah succeeded in revealing almost all the puzzles.
i managed to finish reading a book last week. it is 'the time traveller's wife'. wah.. cerita ni sungguh best. it's a love story actually.. but written in such a sweet and wonderful way. kan i pernah kata, i tak minat romance novel, but this is different.
it is about a librarian, Henry, who was born with a genetic disorder that causes him to 'time-travel' unpredictably. bila2 masa je dia akan boleh travel either to the future or the past. and he couldn't control it.
dlm masa dia time travel tu, dia jumpa ngan Clare, who was only 6 y.o at that time, and he was 32. entah macam mana, dia selalu dapat time travel to see clare. and he watched clare grows, from a little girl to a young woman. bila clare dah 18, dia dah tak jumpa clare lagi. clare grew up waiting for the guy to come from the future. he would turned up at a meadow near her house and they would chat and do her homework together. and clare silently admired henry, and wished that they would really be with each other in the real time, somewhere in the future.
they only met in real life when clare was 20 and henry was 28. they married each other. but life after that was not easy. kalau masa kecik, clare was always waiting for henry to come from the future. bila dah betul2 kawin, clare has to bear with his absence as henry would time travel bila2 masa je. and he would be away for a few minutes or even days and weeks.
another problem was when they decided to have a child. it was difficult. clare kept on having abortions, one after another. finally they went to seek help. found out that it was a genetic problem. and the cause of abortion was because the fetus was time-traveling. after 5 abortions, henry finally make a decision for vasectomy sbb dia tak nak clare suffer the pain of abortions anymore. he made the decision alone, and clare was really upset when she discovered about it. she wanted a baby. but clare got pregnant again, she conceived after meeting a younger henry from the past, yg blm buat vasectomy. and kali ni the pregnancy was successful. as it runs genetically, their daughter also time-travels.
the last few episodes were really sad.. knowing when you have to go and leave your loved ones. henry was shot while he time-traveled... and after the death, clare was still waiting for henry to come from the past. isn't waiting such a torment..?
it was really touching and sad. terisak2 kita menangis malam tu before tidur.. sampai bengkak mata the next day. it's a beautiful love story, about two people trying to adapt to their differences. having to cope with life difficulties which is far from expectations. ain't life full of surprises?
"true love stories never have endings, for love should never ends.."
btw, last week was quite a sad week. after a day learning that a fellow blogger is fighting death in ICU, she finally died.. due to a metastatic breast cancer. she suffered the disease for 8 years. she wrote her experiences in her blog.. i cried for her for two consecutive days.. and today, reading elviza's writing (blog: write away) an obituary on her brings back the tears.. may Dalilah Tamrin aka Raden Galoh be placed in Jannah. you can visit her blog and read all her wonderful posts at http://onebreastbouncing.blogspot.com/ and at facebook.
"out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars." ~ Khalil Gibran
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selama menyepi ni, i have been reading. lately, i would ensure i read at least a few pages before going to sleep. lepas baca buku utk sofea, i would read to myself, sambil tunggu mata ngantuk. tv pun dah jarang tengok, kecuali rancangan kanak2. dan i'm back into games. haha.. tapi now dah mula rasa boring ngan game tu coz dah succeeded in revealing almost all the puzzles.
i managed to finish reading a book last week. it is 'the time traveller's wife'. wah.. cerita ni sungguh best. it's a love story actually.. but written in such a sweet and wonderful way. kan i pernah kata, i tak minat romance novel, but this is different.
it is about a librarian, Henry, who was born with a genetic disorder that causes him to 'time-travel' unpredictably. bila2 masa je dia akan boleh travel either to the future or the past. and he couldn't control it.
dlm masa dia time travel tu, dia jumpa ngan Clare, who was only 6 y.o at that time, and he was 32. entah macam mana, dia selalu dapat time travel to see clare. and he watched clare grows, from a little girl to a young woman. bila clare dah 18, dia dah tak jumpa clare lagi. clare grew up waiting for the guy to come from the future. he would turned up at a meadow near her house and they would chat and do her homework together. and clare silently admired henry, and wished that they would really be with each other in the real time, somewhere in the future.
they only met in real life when clare was 20 and henry was 28. they married each other. but life after that was not easy. kalau masa kecik, clare was always waiting for henry to come from the future. bila dah betul2 kawin, clare has to bear with his absence as henry would time travel bila2 masa je. and he would be away for a few minutes or even days and weeks.
another problem was when they decided to have a child. it was difficult. clare kept on having abortions, one after another. finally they went to seek help. found out that it was a genetic problem. and the cause of abortion was because the fetus was time-traveling. after 5 abortions, henry finally make a decision for vasectomy sbb dia tak nak clare suffer the pain of abortions anymore. he made the decision alone, and clare was really upset when she discovered about it. she wanted a baby. but clare got pregnant again, she conceived after meeting a younger henry from the past, yg blm buat vasectomy. and kali ni the pregnancy was successful. as it runs genetically, their daughter also time-travels.
the last few episodes were really sad.. knowing when you have to go and leave your loved ones. henry was shot while he time-traveled... and after the death, clare was still waiting for henry to come from the past. isn't waiting such a torment..?
it was really touching and sad. terisak2 kita menangis malam tu before tidur.. sampai bengkak mata the next day. it's a beautiful love story, about two people trying to adapt to their differences. having to cope with life difficulties which is far from expectations. ain't life full of surprises?
"true love stories never have endings, for love should never ends.."
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
viva espana!!
should have written about this earlier, but was quite busy since the last 2 days.. haha.. busy qadha tidur!
and last nite, after sofea terjaga.. feeling nauseated and vomited at around 2 am, kita terus macam tido2 ayam. pagi tadi, pukul 4 pagi dah bangkit, buat apa yang patut and perlu... dan akhirnya gi turun tgk movie. rasa sunyi pula bila the world cup dah over.
and Spain made it as the new world cup champion, on their very first world cup final ever. the dutch, who played quite a dirty game terpaksa berpuas hati as runner up, after 3 attempts so far.
was expecting a tight game, and not many goals. my prediction was they would end up the 90 minutes game with a draw, and still couldn't find a winner after the extension time.. best juga tgk org kalah penalti masa final... the players yg konon tough tu pun boleh nangis. but actually menang penalty tu sebenarnya lebih pada nasib.. so tak best gak.
but torres finally made a good pass form the left side to fabregas, who made a beautiful pass to iniesta, who scored the winning goal. that was at about 2 or 3 minutes before the referree blew the whistle. iker casillas was seen crying thankfully even before the whistle was blown.
and i was so very happy... coz my heroes, torres and fabregas finally contributed towards the winning of spain walaupun they didn't really shine earlier on. suka tengok the prize giving ceremony.. i did shed some tears!
orang yang i paling kesian was robben.. sungguh macam lipas kudung, berlari ke sana ke mari, but failed to get a goal. sneijder unfortunately didn't have much opportunity that night, kena kawal ketat. but the dutch was really playing a dirty game. alonso was kicked in the chest. and the oranje received 9 yellow cards, and one got the red card.
germany's young anchor person, thomas mueller received the best young player award and the golden boot. memang layak pun.. dia memang hebat. his absence in the semi final against spain was really felt, many people believed the result would have been different if he was playing. and even though david villa didn't get the golden boot, there was no doubt that he played a significant role in bringing spain to the final. too bad he didn't get a goal in the final itself. otherwise, he would have won the golden boot.
iker casillas received the golden glove award, for being the most outstanding goalkeeper in the 2010 world cup. he is 29, and have a few more years to prove that he can be as legendary as dino zoff (italy, 1982) or oliver kahn (germany, 2006).
uruguay's diego forlan received the golden ball award. he amazed many people with his skillful football and attacking ability, and being instrumental in bringing the average uruguay into the semi final and finishing fourth.
2010 also observed many surprises.. france and italy didn't make it to round 16. england and portugal pun tak menyerlah sangat walaupun portugal menang besar dgn north korea. brazil and argentina didn't make it to semi final.. nevertheless, i'm glad argentina didn't win the cup. otherwise.. rasanya tak sanggup nak melihat maradona mengotakan janjinya. it might not be a good sight to watch. haha..
and everyone would remember Paul the Octopus, who made accurate predictions in 8 matches in this world cup. lepas ni banyak la pulak org nak bela sotong agaknya.. :)
Sunday, July 11, 2010
waka waka ei ei
after about a month.. now come the finale.
masa world cup 2010 bermula, kita sedang bercuti di KB, together with almost all family members yang lain.. memang seronok borak2 kosong pasal bola. kita bukannya reti sangat the technical things, but mmg enjoy watching it. dan pasukan pilihan kita pada waktu itu adalah SPAIN. why did i chose spain? main reason.. sebab kita rasa spain ada ramai stars yg memang bagus - david villa, torres, david silva, iker casillas, fabregas, iniesta, ramos, xabi alonso, xavi and puyol. most of them plays for barcelona and real madrid. but kali ni torres macam lembik sikit (maybe bcoz of the hamstring injury), and the so cute fabregas hanya jadi substitute.
pilihan kedua is my all time favourite dari dulu lagi... Germany. dari kita start tgk world cup in 1982, tak tahu kenapa germany (previously, west germany) memang menarik. dari zaman ruminigge, schumacher, sampailah pierre littbarski, rudi voeller, klinsman, matthaeus, ballack, klose.. tapi kali ni depa hantar young team... so kita tak menaruh harapan sgt.
lain2.. yang kita rasa ada potential adalah argentina and brazil (2 team wajib). even though england 'bunyinya' macam bagus.. tapi ianya lebih kurang team malaysia... banyak cakap dari hasil. huha..huha.. je lebih. jujurnya kita tak menaruh harapan pada the oranje netherlands, uruguay or paraguay.
but bila dah nak masuk round of 16.. nampak germany sungguh gah.. they're fast, rajin attack, speedy counter-attack, good defense and never gave up. menakjubkan team muda ni. sampai satu masa... after beating england 4-1 and argentina 4-0, kita rasa.. nothing will stop them. they'll gonna win the cup. mueller, klose, schweinsteiger, podolski, oezil mc dreamy eyes, lahm, friederich... memang mantap!!
semi final germany vs spain.. i was supporting germany. but the game was very tight and tense. sangat berhati2, no dangerous and daring tackle. yellow cards pun tak banyak melayang, rasanya satu je malam tu. tambah2 mueller tak leh main, germany nampak sungguh buntu dan klose pujaan tampak kaku. semuanya main cam dah kena beli!! dan spain yang juga memang sangat bagus finally got the goal. dan kita rasa kepala Puyol memang power habis malam tu. spain won. frust juga lah..
kita tak sangka the oranje juga hebat (dan ramai yang botak macho!!).. sneidjer, robben and van persie made a really good combination. they're also fast dan memang pandai menyelinap dan attack. tgk robben cam lipas kudung. defense sangat kebal juga. didn't expect them to beat brazil. and the game against uruguay was also very entertaining. uruguay's diego forlan sangat skillful, not forgetting cavani yg baru kita kenal. players uruguay lain kita tak kenal sangat.
so.. final ni camana? dua2 bagus. baik spain, mahu pun holland the oranje. jadi kita support kedua2nya.. tapi dalam hati.. kita ade sikit lebih towards spain. haha..
anyways, this time around many stars failed to shine or got at least a goal. messi, torres, kaka, ronaldo, van persie, rooney are among those yang menggigit jari.
yang betul2 menonjol... mueller (never heard of him before!), david villa, sneijder, klose, iniesta, ramos, schweinsteiger, robben, xavi, alonso, casillas, forlan and cavani (from the semi final onwards).
tapi, yang lebih popular.. semestinya Paul the Octopus. ahh.. kalau la boleh di buat sotong celup tepung kan sedap!!
masa world cup 2010 bermula, kita sedang bercuti di KB, together with almost all family members yang lain.. memang seronok borak2 kosong pasal bola. kita bukannya reti sangat the technical things, but mmg enjoy watching it. dan pasukan pilihan kita pada waktu itu adalah SPAIN. why did i chose spain? main reason.. sebab kita rasa spain ada ramai stars yg memang bagus - david villa, torres, david silva, iker casillas, fabregas, iniesta, ramos, xabi alonso, xavi and puyol. most of them plays for barcelona and real madrid. but kali ni torres macam lembik sikit (maybe bcoz of the hamstring injury), and the so cute fabregas hanya jadi substitute.
pilihan kedua is my all time favourite dari dulu lagi... Germany. dari kita start tgk world cup in 1982, tak tahu kenapa germany (previously, west germany) memang menarik. dari zaman ruminigge, schumacher, sampailah pierre littbarski, rudi voeller, klinsman, matthaeus, ballack, klose.. tapi kali ni depa hantar young team... so kita tak menaruh harapan sgt.
lain2.. yang kita rasa ada potential adalah argentina and brazil (2 team wajib). even though england 'bunyinya' macam bagus.. tapi ianya lebih kurang team malaysia... banyak cakap dari hasil. huha..huha.. je lebih. jujurnya kita tak menaruh harapan pada the oranje netherlands, uruguay or paraguay.
but bila dah nak masuk round of 16.. nampak germany sungguh gah.. they're fast, rajin attack, speedy counter-attack, good defense and never gave up. menakjubkan team muda ni. sampai satu masa... after beating england 4-1 and argentina 4-0, kita rasa.. nothing will stop them. they'll gonna win the cup. mueller, klose, schweinsteiger, podolski, oezil mc dreamy eyes, lahm, friederich... memang mantap!!
semi final germany vs spain.. i was supporting germany. but the game was very tight and tense. sangat berhati2, no dangerous and daring tackle. yellow cards pun tak banyak melayang, rasanya satu je malam tu. tambah2 mueller tak leh main, germany nampak sungguh buntu dan klose pujaan tampak kaku. semuanya main cam dah kena beli!! dan spain yang juga memang sangat bagus finally got the goal. dan kita rasa kepala Puyol memang power habis malam tu. spain won. frust juga lah..
kita tak sangka the oranje juga hebat (dan ramai yang botak macho!!).. sneidjer, robben and van persie made a really good combination. they're also fast dan memang pandai menyelinap dan attack. tgk robben cam lipas kudung. defense sangat kebal juga. didn't expect them to beat brazil. and the game against uruguay was also very entertaining. uruguay's diego forlan sangat skillful, not forgetting cavani yg baru kita kenal. players uruguay lain kita tak kenal sangat.
so.. final ni camana? dua2 bagus. baik spain, mahu pun holland the oranje. jadi kita support kedua2nya.. tapi dalam hati.. kita ade sikit lebih towards spain. haha..
anyways, this time around many stars failed to shine or got at least a goal. messi, torres, kaka, ronaldo, van persie, rooney are among those yang menggigit jari.
yang betul2 menonjol... mueller (never heard of him before!), david villa, sneijder, klose, iniesta, ramos, schweinsteiger, robben, xavi, alonso, casillas, forlan and cavani (from the semi final onwards).
tapi, yang lebih popular.. semestinya Paul the Octopus. ahh.. kalau la boleh di buat sotong celup tepung kan sedap!!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
girly talk
one of the things that my daughter, sofea likes to do whenever we had a quiet time together is having a look at my tummy. it doesn't mean that my tummy is sooo amazingly beautiful, but it certainly is not that buncit as compared to many other married women. it's fairly flat. haha..! tapi yang mahalnya.. it bears the prove that i once carried my babies inside it. i do have some stretch marks, though not so prominent.
last night, i asked sofea.. what kind of mother she wanted me to be? her answer was simple.. she wants me to be like Seri (my sister no. 7, which is her aunt). why is that so? because... Seri has 5 children, and recently, Seri gave birth to baby Hana. sofea loves hana sooo much, dia buat budak tu cam anak patung, and berani angkat that 2 months old baby. she was like an assistant to Seri during the one week holiday that we had about 2 weeks ago.
i told Sofea, it's not easy to get pregnant, and its not easy being pregnant and giving birth.
i spent the later part of my pregnancy (for sofea) alone as i was transferred to KT, and hubbyby was still in kb. i had to face the difficulty in breathing late at night alone, had to bear the aching muscle cramps alone in the early mornings. had everything ready in a small bag in my car, just in case anything happened. when the doctors felt that i need to be admitted for observation and c-section, i told my boss.. but the way she looked at me made me decided to finish the clinic for the day before making my way alone to the ward. my hubbyby only came a few hours later. i need to be operated to gave birth to her. and i showed her the barely visible caesarian scar. i explained to her how the op was done. and how happy i was when i heard her crying the moment the doctor pulled her out. but i was shivering all the way.. it was sooo cold! she listened...
after that we changed subjects and i cuddled her in my arms so that she can go to sleep faster (ummi wants to finish reading a book!).
suddenly she opened her eyes and whispered to me... "ummi, sofea takut la nak beranak.."
haha... ketawa kita dibuatnya.. she is only 5, and already thinking about giving birth!
girl, you still have a long way to go.. :)
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