Wednesday, December 29, 2010
my way..
And so I face the final curtain
My friend I'll say it clear
I'll state my case of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and every highway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way
Regrets I've had a few
But then again too few to mention
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course
Each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way
Yes there were times I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out, I faced it all
And I stood tall and did it my way
I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now as tears subside
I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say not in a shy way
Oh no, oh no, not me
I did it my way
For what is a man what has he got
If not himself then he has not
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way..
Monday, December 27, 2010
cuti seminggu
so what did we do?
- began our journey on friday dec 17th.
- since my hp line does not cover unlimited internet, i subscribed one week broadband service with celcom at RM18/week. main reason was because i wanted to use the GPS on my phone. belum pernah guna sebelum ni.
- since pregnant i lebih kerap nak gi toilet as compared to before. kalau dulu i memang tak nak masuk public toilet, kali ni terpaksa. but suprisingly.. i found that the public toilets at R&R and big shopping centers are fairly clean. cuma toilet kat masjid je yang kurang memuaskan, may be bcoz tak de org dibayar utk cuci toilet.
- masuk je KL kami terus ke 1-utama untuk shopping. agenda no.1 adalah nak beli maternity blouses and pants and shoes. we didn't go to midvalley city sbb on friday afternoon the federal highway selalunya jam giler. since destinasi seterusnya was setia alam, we took LDP route to damansara and shopped at 1-utama
- hoho.. my bill at ModernMum was... $$$crazy. i got myself 2 maternity blouses, 3 maternity pants and a pair of sandals at a total price yang i tak pernah dapat in one single receipt (utk pakaian). control macho je sign credit card.
- masa beli tu tak fikir panjang.. i just wanted something of good quality and presentable for me to wear at work. after all, itu je yang akan i pakai selama 9 bulan ni.
- masa i sibuk shopping utk anak2, hubbyby and hanif merayau cari surau. tapi mereka tak jumpa surau but jumpa kedai musical instruments. hanif wanted a keyboard. beria2 hubbyby came to me and showed me the pamphlet. i said its better to buy an upright piano rather than just a keyboard. guess what?? he agreed to buy it!! terbeliak mataku.. kita pun cepat2 buat sibuk cari baju dia pula. finally when he finished paying for his stuffs, elly called ckp dia akan datang fetch kami kat 1utama within 10-15 minutes. tak sempat kami nak ke kedai keyboard tu semula. hanif nampak frustrated.. but musical instruments are not our priority at the moment, i'm sorry.. (walaupun umi dah lama mimpi to own a piano)
- had our dinner at kak rah's house and spent the nite at elly's house. both of them bought houses at setia impian, rumah dekat2. abg yie prepared delicious mee goreng mamak for us, and we had carrot cake (anis's birthday cake).
- the next day, kami adikberadik 7 families gathered at wet world shah alam. reason gi situ.. entry fees murah sangat2 as compared to sunway lagoon. haha.. yang nak main air anak2 je. dah pregnant ni tak leh la nak main air, nanti tergelincir ke jatuh ke sape yang susah? but kak ya, kak rah, era and elly sempat jugak basah bersama anak2 mereka.
- balik wet world, kami singgah jusco bukit raja. had delayed lunch at nando's and kita continue shopping maternity blouses kat jusco. haha.. punya la murah baju kat jusco. menyesal gi modernmum! beli lagi 3 maternity blouses and another pants. 4 items that cost half the price i spent at modernmum. ohh... yang sudah tu sudah laa.. jangan menyesal!!
- malam tu we had barbeque at kak rah's house. 7 families gathered. kak na and family tak dapat datang bcoz they had to attend a kenduri in ampang. and of course minus kak za in KT and kak ei in kulim. and i missed my parents.. i know che pun nak datang but ayah tak nak tinggal tugas dia kat masjid.
- seronok makan ramai2, sambil kak ni, kak ya and amin bercerita pasal holiday mereka in new zealand. and all of us got souvenirs from NZ. rumah jg gamat bila kami sama2 tgk bola 2nd leg semifinal suzuki cup, m'sia vs vietnam.
- sofea and hanif sangat happy jumpa cousins mereka.. dan malam tu bukan hanya kami yang tidur rumah kak rah. kak ya and kak su plus anak2 pun stay kat rumah kak rah... haha.. tak puas2 bercerita itu ini.
- the next morning, we went to Kak Na's house for breakfast. again, beramai2. we had nasi lemak special. kali ni dapat souvenir lagi.. this time from makassar, sulawesi.
- selepas perut kenyang, kami sambung perjalanan kami. we went to Nilai first, hantar kak su and nu'man. then kami teruskan perjalanan ke melaka.
- checked-in at Renaissance Melaka Hotel for 3days 2 nights stay. melawat Melaka Maju..
- petang tu ingat nak keluar cari makanan tradisi melaka at nearby gerai... tapi nampak kedai cina je. ade jumpa gerai melayu.. tapi as usual, selera saya boleh tertutup bila tengok persekitaran kedai tu. finally kami ke jusco, tak jumpa restoran yang menarik. foodcourt pula under renovation.. tak banyak choice, makan je ape yang ada. balik hotel, anak2 terus ke swimming pool.
- hai... ape yang maju nya melaka ni? lebih kurang sama je ngan ganu and kb..
- next morning, lepas breakfast, kami terus ke menara taming sari, naik replika kapal portugis, masuk museum maritime, and walked to bukit yang ade remnants st paul's church, a famosa, stadhuy's building and istana kesultanan melaka. boleh tahan jauh berjalan, sambil naik turun bukit. hubbyby pun terkejut tgk i sanggup panjat tangga naik bukit tu. ohh... boleh tahan gak sakit urat2 kat kaki tu.. sampai sekarang masih terasa.
- had lunch at shopping mall kat dataran pahlawan.
- kereta kena saman parking walau kami dah bayar parking for 3 hours (kalo ikut mesin RM1.80). berputar2 cari kaunter bayaran. rupa2nya mesin tempat kami bayar duit parking tu dah tak pakai. kami patut gi ambik resit parking. so kena bayar denda RM5 (yang sebenarnya jauh lebih murah dari rate parking sebenar, which is RM6 for the first 1 hour). kiranya, kami tak rugi ape2 pun la walau disaman.
- lepas solat asar, kami naik river cruise.. boleh tahan la menariknya. ala2 venice gitu, tapi botnya tak cantik laa..
- kami makan malam di Umbai. dengar cerita macam sedap. tapi bagi kami indah khabar dari rupa. foodnya biasa2 aje.. alhamdulillah, kenyang jugak.
- esok pagi, lepas breakfast the children get another splash in the swimming pool. kul 12 pm kami checked-out and make a move to A Famosa Resort.
- at A Famosa Resort, kami cuma pergi wild animal safari saje. itu pun agak rushing. the children enjoyed the various animal shows yang ade kat situ. but they didn't get the chance for elephant ride sbb dah tutup. kami tak pergi water world or carnival. again, banyak berjalan. and the truck safari ride was a really bumpy ride. dalam hati ni berdoa je moga tak de ape2. risau gak..
- malam tu kami ke Nilai, rumah kak su. had dinner and stayed for the night. penat..
- next morning, after breakfast kami jemput Jelita yang di tinggalkan di rumah kak na, and had our lunch at kak ya's house. wah... lunchnya sungguh menyelerakan. hanif sehingga menjilat pinggan.
- we decided utk tak pergi rumah kak ni in damansara and rumah syam at bukit antarabangsa. lagi pun dah jumpa kat wet world and setia alam. depa pun sibuk kerja.
- asalnya nak balik ikut gua musang and singgah bermalam di KB. tapi hubbyby ubah plan. he wanted to go bukit gambang resort city pula. terkujat kita.. beria betul pakcik ni nak bercuti. after some dicussion, kita decide pergi gambang next time. tapi kami tak jadi ke kb.
- sampai kemaman, sofea memujuk2 kami stay kat awana kijal. hai... tak puas2 budak2 ni. bila ade maid ni pikir 2-3 kali juga bila nak stay hotel. ye la, takkan dia nak stay satu bilik ngan kita. and the cost of another room tu.. bukanla berkira tapi memang kena kira pun.. kita bukannya orang kaya.
- stopped at mesra mall utk solat maghrib and makan. aleh2 sempat pulak hubbyby and hanif pergi meninjau ke TGV dan beria2 ajak kita tgk Narnia malam tu. show mula 9.30 and habis dah dekat kul 12 malam. pukul berapa nak sampai KT, bang?? awak tu mudah ngantuk drive malam.. okay. tengok movie next time. kesian hanif..
- on the way home.. as expected, hubbyby sangat mengantuk. we stopped at petronas station rantau abang for him to nap for a while. alhamdulillah we reached home safely at 12 midnight.
- no doubt the journey was tiring. but the children really enjoyed the holiday. they like it better than langkawi. and walau ummi masih tak puas shopping, bersyukurlah.. dah banyak duit habis pun. shopping tu duniawi je.. (kata2 memujuk hati)
looking forward to next holiday. sabah? singapore? panggilan pulau? belum cukup kaya nak gi oversea.. that one should wait after haji, or at least umrah for the family.
Friday, December 10, 2010
something wonderful..
watching The Young Victoria... it was all smiles... a wonderful love story, beautifully laid out..
but i was sobbing at the end of the movie... prince albert died young, leaving queen victoria mourning for him for years.. and in memory of her husband, she never failed to lay out his clothes every morning following the death.
and i love the proposal scene.. it was so sweet and brought tears to my eyes..
how i wish all the men out there can be as affectionate, passionate and loving as prince albert. you played it well Rupert..
love that never dies..
a wonderful love story between queen victoria and prince albert, beautifully laid out..
Thursday, December 9, 2010
tablescapes..
makan, makan dan makan..
2009 - sejak awal tahun, entah kenapa saya jadi tak lalu makan.. perut lapar, tapi selera bagaikan mati bila melihat nasi dan bila lauk disuap ke mulut. penurunan selera tu macam roller coaster yang turun laju dari keadaan menegak. kadang2 bau yang terbit bila menumis pun terpaksa je tahan. ramai fikir saya jaga makan untuk jaga badan. sebenarnya tidak. saya suka makan. masa kecik dulu pun org gelarkan saya ikan buntal sebab saya chubby kiut.
tanpa sedar berat saya benar2 turun. sebelum kawin, berat saya maintain 44-45kg. lepas bersalin, maintain at 48kg. but in 2009, my weight turun sampai 39 kg. banyak baju saya menjadi sangat longgar sampai nampak macam pakai baju org lain. saya juga boleh muat jeans zaman single dulu. muka saya jadi kurus, tulang selangka juga jadi prominent.
tapi saya tak de la risau sangat.. saya rasa sihat, happy macam biasa. blood test pun normal. walau ada yang minta saya jumpa ustaz dan org2 alim kerana takut ada benda lain yang mengganggu, saya rasa tidak perlu. saya terima perubahan ini dengan fikiran terbuka.. aging process, haha..
alhamdulillah, after enrolling myself in a regular aerobic program, selera makan saya mula kembali. tetapi mungkin kerana sudah terbiasa makan sikit, saya dah rasa selesa dengan amaun yang sedikit. somehow, i'm the kind of person who can control my temptations. walau suka chocolates, cakes and ice cream dan banyak kueh2 tradisional yang manis... saya tak makan over2.
2010 - alhamdulillah, akhirnya penantian jadi kenyataan. alhamdulillah, kali ini tak de nausea sangat dan vomiting tiada langsung. sampai saya tertanya2 juga, betul ke pregnant ni? kehamilan yg lalu, saya biasanya memang selalu nauseated dan vomit sekali sekala, walau saya tak de masalah untuk makan.
seperti biasa, bila pregnant, selera saya luar biasa. dan saya akan ade perasaan nak makan macam2, dan saya akan cuba masak apa yang saya sebelum ni tak pernah masak. lapar datang tiba2... the fisrt month of pregnancy kali ni saya makan sangat banyak. saya seperti teruja untuk makan. saya akan makan nasi lemak atau mee goreng untuk breakfast dan sentiasa ready kueh dalam handbag untuk makan bila lapar tiba2. hasilnya... sebulan pregnant, berat naik sampai 4kg.
tetapi... saya rasa sungguh tidak selesa. perut rasa tak selesa, macam ade indigestion. sebu. letih dan lemah. towards the evening... saya kelesuan.
saya review balik cara pemakanan saya. kenapa perlu jadi hamba pada rasa lapar dan makanan? kita yang harus kuatkan mental dan menjaga pemakanan secara sihat. dan saya kembali kepada roti untuk breakfast - samada tuna sandwich, french toast, bread with scramble eggs, peanut butter sandwich, atau sekadar roti cicah milo/tea... itulah breakfast saya setiap hari sebelum pergi kerja. dan saya akan beli sejenis kueh utk bekal kalau tiba2 lapar jam 11 pg.
i took heavy lunch, but a light dinner, and lots of fruits. alhamdulillah... saya rasa lebih selesa sekarang. badan rasa sihat dan tidak kelesuan di petang hari.
kata sofea, perut umi dah buncit... hampir 3 bulan, memang dah terasa si kecil makin membesar. saya memilih untuk tidak lagi memakai kebaya atau kurung moden. saya kembali selesa dengan baju kurung yang tahun lepas saya rasa menggelebeh.. dan oleh kerana saya memang jenis suka pakai blaus longgar dan besar, saya tak de masalah dengan blouse and pants. kalau dulu kena pakai belt, sekarang tak perlu lagi.
dua minggu lagi saya akan bercuti... looking forward to tasting new food and trying new eating places. dan nak cari baju2 untuk perut saya yang semakin membesar, dan kasut yang lebih selesa untuk pergerakan yang stabil with good balance.
hmm... i'm loving my life :)
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
breakaway..
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray..
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away..
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away..
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away..
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway...
Friday, December 3, 2010
Is your job killing you?
Women with stressful jobs are twice as likely to have a heart attack!!
Results from a study by Dr. Michelle Albert, which were presented at the American Heart Disease Association, revealed that women who have stressful and demanding jobs are two times more likely to suffer from a stroke or a heart attack in comparison to women with less stressful jobs.
Tight deadlines, stress and work demands or worries about losing you job in a tough economy, especially on top of running a home, released ‘fight or flight’ hormones in the women with stressful jobs which immediately raises blood pressure.
Other side effects from having a stressful job were heart problems, higher cholesterol, blocked arteries, strokes and were 43 per cent more likely to need bypass surgery in comparison to those in less stressful jobs.
A similar study related to stressfound that they can also age you by a decade. British newspaper, The Daily Mail, reported that scientists found that stress is “the over-riding factor when it comes to the rate at which we grow older.”
Our DNA and cells are protected by telomeres, but as our cells divide or are subjected to damage, the telomeres get shorter and this is how we age. Stress is what damages the telomeres the most and the shorted these telomeres are the more unprotected our DNA becomes.
It was found that middle-aged women are the ones most affected by this who are juggling jobs, elderly parents and children in their teenage years.
To reduce the damages of stress:
Don’t diet – its stressful and demanding on us physically and psychologically
Meditate - deep breathing, controlling your thoughts and clearing your mind reduces stress.
Exercise – it disperses stress hormones from the blood.
Have a positive outlook – research found pessimists have shorter telomeres.
Eat right – omega-3 encourage telomeres to grow and pistachios protect DNA
Sleep – the body repairs itself when we sleep.
(Source: The daily Mail)
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
secrets
I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that delight those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
My God, amazing that we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Sending it straight to gold
I don't really like my flow, no, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that delight those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
Oh, got no reason, got no shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'm gonna tell you everything..