someday..

somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue,
and the dreams that you dare to dream, really do come true..

"ummi, sofea rasa macam nak baby laa..", huhu.. i melt at her request. "ummi pun nak baby juga, tapi Allah belum nak bagi..". rasanya semua org yang rapat dgn kita tahu kita memang mengaharap. "kita doa lah, ummi ye..", she said lovingly.

aahh.. wasn't that sweet.

my elder sister just gave birth last wednesday. and after 4 boys, she finally gets a baby girl. i am so happy for her. i know dia memang mengharap, walaupun masa pergi haji few years back she decided not to really beg for it.

ntah la.. at this age, kita nak minta lebih2 pun takut juga. bukan ape, umur dah nak masuk 40, and pregnancy at this age is related to complications. alhamdulillah, all my 3 sisters who got pregnant at this age tak de masalah, baby pun sihat.

the truth is.. as anak2 makin besar, memang terasa makin sunyi. mereka dah kurang bergantung pada kita, dan asyik dgn aktiviti mereka. jujurnya.. memang rindu yang amat untuk ada baby lagi.

perasaan ada baby ni susah nak cerita.. i cried when i first saw my baby.. terisak2. mr hubbyby thought i was in pain and was really worried. seronok, syukur dan gembira... tak tahu nak cakap. taking care of the baby was also challenging, but full of excitement.

i chose to spend my confinement period at my mom's house, therefore mr hubbyby was not with me. dia balik weekend je. the time spent with the baby was priceless.. suara dia nangis, tengok dia menggeliat, tgk dia senyum dlm tidur, tgk dia terkelip2 staring blankly at you, the soft skin, the cute little fingers and toes.. aahhh.. so delicately beautiful.

watching them grow day after day was a pleasure. each milestone was joyously celebrated. the first roll-over, the first crawl, the first step, the first word, the laugh...

time paling best main bila umurnya in between 1 to 2 years. so cute, adorable and wonderful.

dan kita masih mengharap..