a beautiful mind

i need to believe that something extraordinary is possible..



i love watching movies. tapi tak semua movies tu elok. i'm quite selective in watching movies. among all the movies that i've watched... the ones that i like most are... Forest Gump, A Beautiful Mind, Avatar, Stepmom, Shawshank Redemption, the Bucket List... and i still wish to watch the Rainman (sampai sekarang tak jumpa rainman). all these movies touched me deeply. beautiful and fullfilling.

it took me nine years to watch A Beautiful Mind. dulu cari cd pirate tak jumpa. now cari cd ori pun susah nak jumpa. finally downloaded it from the net.

beautiful mind memang best. sangat best. memang layak dapat best picture and best director award. and i personally believe russell crowe really deserved the best actor award, though he did not win it.

it was based on a real story of Prof John Nash, who is a genius. he came from a humble background and has the obsession to become the best. the story began after he was accepted to princeton university to learn mathematics.

John has an a-social personality, he's not good at socializing and had few friends. the only person who could really get close to him was his roomate, Charles, his sole companion through-out college, his only best friend.

he didn't really attend the classes which he believed can destroy the potential for authentic creativity. he's a nerd and people thought that he was weird. he was made a fool by his fellow classmates. he spent most of his time by himself and learnt most of things through observation, which he believes would give him original ideas. he was really obsessed in acquiring truly original ideas as the only was to distinguish himself, and it's the only thing that matters.

though having difficulty keeping up with the smart people there, his dreams finally came true.. it was an achievement of a lifetime. he got good job and was well respected. finally met a girl, Sylvia, who found him interesting, and married her. she was his student.

problems started when he was approached by an agent for the department of defense. his expertise is needed by the country to reading and breaking codes. his life was a mess since then. he lost grip on reality and things went beyond limit. his performance at work deteriorated and he became so paranoid and insecure.

the truth only reveals when the expert came in. he never really had a roomate. and the task for the dept of defense never exists. the roomate and the agent was only his hallucination, and he was deluded by his belief that his expertise is needed by the dept of defense. another person that never exist was a little girl who was a niece to the roomate. he really loves the little girl and the girl stays in his house. John Nash was institutionalized for schizophrenia.

treatment was not easy. life was difficult. the drugs for schizophrenia changed a man's life. his marriage life was on a rocking boat. but he was lucky to have a wife with a beautiful heart. who help him find his way back, who believes that something extraordinary is possible. he also found his way back with the help of his old rival in college, who was then the dean in princeton. he was allowed to be in the university to familiarize himself with the things he used to do, as part of therapy. he spent most of his time in the library and with the student.

though the three characters in his hallucination never really go away, he managed to ignore them. he worked up his mind and finally won a Nobel prize in economics.

the story touched me deeply, and it taught me a lot about life and appreciate the beautiful life i have. wonderful scriptwriting, excellent directing, brilliant acting, beautiful scenes... made me smile, laugh and cried. John Nash gave me goose-bumps.

"perhaps it is good to have a BEAUTIFUL MIND, but an even greater gift is to discover a BEAUTIFUL HEART"