lovebug

dedicated to all. luv ya.

watched american idol last nite. hmmm... not as good as 2008 punye. it was between adam lambert and kris allen. as mentioned earlier, i go for kris. actually kris ni, suara tak delah sedap mana. dia biasa2 je. tapi his aura yang buat dia boleh masuk final. kita ni biasalah... suka yang kita nampak ada outstanding character. he was being himself, not overdoing it, not trying too hard to look good, humble and down to earth. oleh sebab itu his performance last nite was... to me, biasa je. too laidback to be a finale performance.

both of them sang 3 songs. kris sang while playing the piano for the first song, sang with his guitar for the second song and sang by himself in the third song. for a finale performance, i would say, i'm a little bit disappointed. but he was his usual kris. on the other hand, adam appeared to be doing his best last nite. yup, he has a great voice, but it became annoying when he started screeching his voice. tau la he can do the high notes well, but oh... please don't over do it. menyampah tengok nak menjerit je in each song. again, to me... the finale performance was biasa2 je. far from david cook and david archuletta last year, which was very entertaining and exciting.

since i watched it on 8TV, sebenarnya, i ni ketinggalan sikit. the result will be out on 8TV tonite. but for those who watched it live, result dah keluar. and the winner or the new american idol is.... KRIS ALLEN! well, good for you kris. looking at adam, his potential is far bigger than the 'american idol' title itself, so it depends on both of them how to make use of their potential and talents.

samalah cam AF baru2 ni. in the final performance, Akim (yang i suka) did far better than the rest, but he only managed to get the third place. Hafiz the winner, has a wonderful voice, but that is all, he was not creative enough in his performance, quite boring. Aril who won the second place was quite okay, he was really charming and have a unique husky voice too. but i still think akim did far better.

ahh... you should watch the official 'lovebug' music video by jonas brothers. and listen to the strings arrangements. i really think these guys are good.

now i'm speechless over the edge, i'm just breathless

i never thought that i'd catch this lovebug again

hopeless, head over heels in the moment

i never thought i'd get hit by this lovebug again

till later days... (ida, does that sound familiar?)

i love my life

don't know what's wrong with me. yesterday, i returned from work with a strange feeling. nothing bad happened at work. kat rumah pun biasa je. but i returned home feeling empty! felt so down with no valid reason. confused. i didn't even have my evening tea. the currypuff and tea was left untouched.

luckily my sisters and nieces yang semuanya kepala giler2, have been posting crazy comments and remarks on our facebook forum. rajin betul depa ni semua. old pictures uploaded. bringing back nostalgic memories. my junior at work also left a wonderful message to me. i was really touched. no other can ever replace my wonderful sisters, and my few 'true' friends.

enuff bout that! life goes on... let the wind blows away all my doubts and worries.

this picture is so nostalgic, uploaded to facebook by my sis. it was taken in 1977, while i was 6 years old. i was the one in the red dress, sitting in between my mom and our late grandfather. my youngest sister, elly, was not yet born. it was the year we moved into our current home in taman guru. my hair was still long at that time. bila masuk standard one, terus potong pendek. hehe... kita dulu rambut contoh kat sekolah, neat, short and well kept. tapi bila masuk standard five, dah pandai simpan panjang sikit.

this one was taken in 1980, my dad posing with his 9 girls and one boy. dad was really fit, at 43, masih tegap. i was the one squatting in front, in black kurung (left). this was the last time all of us were around for raya. after that, one by one of my sisters started going abroad to further their studies, and it was only in 1988 or 1989, baru kami semua boleh kumpul semula all 10 of us for raya. itu pun, tak selalu, because bila dah kawin, kena raya rumah in-law.

we are a close-knit family. even though there is a wide gap between us, the younger ones and the senior ones, we really keep our relationship and bond strong. we respect each other, really take great care not to offend anyone in anything. we share our difficulties, secrets and joys. we never allowed sekelumit pun perasaan hasad in between us. even though now we only see each other about 4-5 times in a year, the emails and facebook keep us in touch.

i guess mom and dad have done a great job in bringing us up, and for turning us into what we are today. all of us are successful in our own ways. we do not see material accomplishments to denotes our success, but our achievement in studies and at work, as well as being able to keep ourselves as humble human beings. modesty is the best policy. the most important thing is to make both mum and dad happy, and enjoy the remaining years that they have. hopefully our future generation will do good to us as well.

real, reality..

kezutan! i can fit into my old jeans, zaman before kawin dulu! haha.. jangan jealous, tapi itulah realitynya. lately, i found all my pants dah tak sedap pakai, semua cam besar and jadi labuh. so does my baju kurung, sungguh tak selesa. so this morning, i keluarkan my old jeans yang i sayang sangat2 dulu, and cuba acu try test. and.... opps, muat and just nice. sukanye hati.... jealous my hubbyby!

like to watch reality shows? suka jugak. yang paling suka... amazing race, explorace. suka jugak tengok american idol, ANTM, OIAM, AF. tapi la ni dah jarang2 tengok, kecuali kalau sofea dah tidur.

last season punya american idol, memang i follow. masa tu kita minat david cook, and he won it. now, famous for his song - light on. last year final - 2 davids, cook and archuletta. tapi david cook lagi macho and original, ada attitude and character. archuletta suara memang sedap tapi gitu jelah... tak de yang extraordinary.

this year, memang tak follow, cuma sempat tengok massa top five. and i suka tengok Kris Allen. ntahlah, i love to see a man singing while playing a guitar, nampak macho, sexy and vulnerable at the same time. cute face. dia tak over, simple, selamba and didn't appear to be trying too hard. natural. sincere in his performance. jujur. dan, biasalah... yang i suka biasanya memang best. so Kris has won a place in the final, together with adam lambert. tak minat adam, walaupun suara power, tapi semacam je... over. so, next week kita tengok sape menang. rasanya susah kris nak menang sebab adam cam lagi ramai fans.

i pun ada jugak tengok AF, tapi kali ni tak tengok diary cam masa zaman mawi dulu. kali ni tengok konsert je. cuba teka i suka siapa? hehe... i like akim. budak ni tak delah macam bagus sangat, cam hafiz tu, tapi dia ada character dia sendiri. and he is tall, tone suara pun manly. suka tengok dia performed last week time dia nyanyi lagu 'i'm yours' and 'larut'. simple but nice and leaves an impact to the audience. malam ni final, rasanya hafiz menang.

baru2 ni sempat gak tengok OIAM, mula dari top five. i was surprised to see the transformation of Tomok. dulu, dia ni famous ngan newboyz, and asyik nyanyi lagu2 tangkap leleh. tak minat. tapi masa OIAM, he looks far more matured and charming and knows how to tackle the fans. paul moss yang susah nak puji orang tu, mesti puji tomok in each performance, sampai i pelik. betul ke paul moss ni? but, he was real good, deserved the i million he won.

lain2 reality show, i tak tengok. tapi banyak yang dah hilang taring. macam AF, rasanya masa paling best - AF2 and AF3. time mawilah yang orang gile2 sangat. lepas tu cam suam2 kuku je.

currently i like to listen to jason mraz - i'm yours, and jonas brothers - lovebug. tak pernah dengar? google or you tube it.

my nieces - calon2 akhir reality show

girls, ada tokoh ke jadi perempuan melayu terakhir? jangan marah!

entrapped

unique!

today we went back to besut. besides our regular monthly visit, my hubbyby needs a massage. few weeks ago, masa tolong baiki rumah his mom, he sprained the muscle at the back. sampai tak leh bangun. terus dapatkan khidmat pak cik tukang urut tu. its much better now, but masih ada rasa tak selesa. anyway, hajatnya tak kesampaian. the tukang urut was busy. men..., they never learn! buatlah appointment before balik, yang!

as for me, whenever balik sana, i need to bring along magazines or novel. today, i brought along my captain future, tapi tak guna pun bcoz no streamyx. malas nak guna dial-up, nanti kacau telephone line rumah tu. hmm... mati kutu jugak.

ada new family addition. Najmuddin, only 11 days of life. was born in johore and just brought to besut last 3 days. baiknya baby tu... jarang2 je dengar dia nangis. senanglah emaknya. hmm... hope adalah rezeki i pula.

besides new baby, ada baby kucing juga - kittens. 4 semuanya. hee... comel tapi geli! masa tengah baca paper, bila angkat kepala je, i was surrounded by 4 cats, mahunya tak menjerit! dahlah bilik yang i biasa guna tu occupied, susahnya nak melarikan diri dari kucing2 itu. masa makan pun asyik merayau2 di sekeliling. sungguh menakutkan!

finally, my SIL asked me to use her room. phew... lega! selamat. maka terperaplah i di situ. i had a good nap sampai boleh make me forget the pressing matter in my head. then i mula bersama cecelia ahern's thanks for the memories. cerita ni slow sikitlah, dah lama i mula baca tapi tak habis2 lagi sebab i cepat boring bila flow cerita tu slow sangat. dah masuk chapter 9 baru mula rasa sedap sikit. tu pun not good enuff to hook me up.

sampai rumah je, terus ingat ikan2 hanif. lately, i dah terlebih sayang pulak kat ikan2 tu. everytime i balik, all 4 of them akan berkumpul at one corner of the aquarium, minta i bagi makan. manja. i like to talk to them, and bahasakan diri i ummi. selang few hours, kalau i lalu kat aquarium tu mesti mintak makan lagi. kesian betul tengok ikan2 tu - comel, tapiterperangkap dalam aquarium, tak de benda2 exciting to be done, tak leh cari makan sendiri. poor fish! lagi kesian coz my hubby tak bagi kasi makan banyak2, nanti ikan tu cepat besar and lagi banyak makan. ntahlah, tak faham pula i, dah kita nak bela mestilah bagi makan betul2. jangan siksa binatang, tak baik.

moral of the story - freedom tu penting sebenarnya. being able to do what we like to do, to go where we want to go, to eat what we want to eat, to enjoy and to fulfill our lives.

trapped? - my nieces & nephews enjoying their holiday. (epi, jajja, tasneem, edd holding the phone, faris)

i believe i can fly, i believe i can reach the sky! cobalah...