drive,drove,driven

i got my driving license after my SPM. passed it on my first attempt, even though the officer commented that i was not careful enough at the jalan kampung, and simply overtook a motorbike on the bridge.

any bad experience? i knocked a tree while trying to park my dad's car - accidentally pressed the accelarator instead of the brake pedal. kecut perut nak inform ayah, asked all my male friends where to get my car fixed within the working hours so that ayah takkan tahu... tapi mana ada tempat boleh buat. finally, i bravely called him - the first word that came out was "ayah, nak minta maaf"... followed by the details. alhamdulillah, ayah tak marah pun! may be bcoz i was able to find the right words. but i did pay for the repair cost.

my car was knocked over twice while on the road. the first one was when i was still single, straight away did a police report and the culprit was summoned for that.

the second time was while i was pregnant (my first child), in kemaman. i stopped by the roadside and talk to the man of that car. i asked him to pay for the damage done to my car since memang sahih salah dia, he was reluctant and blaming me for the accident. i malas nak argue sorang2 with him and told him that i would make a police report, and drove away. he was really mad at me. we met again at the hospital (his wife was one of my ANs). we both sat at a corner and tried to discuss, but he walked away while i was talking. i was really pissed-off. dia boleh tak percaya i ni doctor just because i am small, appeared too young to be a doctor! the men species memang betul2 male chauvinist, ego and bodoh sombong!!! i was really disturbed, rasa tak leh nak kerja tapi lawan jugak coz was on call on that day. malam tu, i mintak excuse kejap, and went to make a police report with my hubbyby. again, i was arrghh... geramnya coz the police officer was like... expecting me to come and was questioning me why i want to make the report. he gave many too many excuses just to prevent me from making the report. malas nak gaduh, kami balik. dalam sakit hati and marah, akhirnya the wife promised me they would pay half. i bukannya nak sangat duit depa tu, cuma geram bila orang tak pandai nak minta maaf bila dah buat salah. i never claimed for the money promised. the man had now passed away - road traffic accident. i maafkan dan halalkan.

since then, i became extra careful while driving. hopefully tak de lagi incident sebegitu.

but now, i have other problems...

1) park at your own risk! - as a so called 'specialist', i am given a parking space at work, with my car plate number written in the space. but, what would a specified space mean to you if other people would still park there even when i'm still not late. kalau keluar at lunch time tu... lagilah depa slumber derk je masuk my parking. even when i put an orange cone there as a polite way of saying "please do not park here!". now, i would just block that car. i always go back late, biar dia rasa kena balik lewat. tapi ada juga makhluk yang pandai manouver his car and manage to get away... sakit hat betul! i sebenarnya nak jugak tengok bagaimana orang lain geram nak marah billa kereta depa kena block. satisfaction!!!!

2) the yelow box - ever notice the yellow box on the road? yeah... the box with yellow criss cross lines in it. you can always find it at junctions and the traffic lights areas. it is to say that you SHOULD NOT BE STATIONARY in that box. ahhh... there are so many selfish people out there who would slumberly stay put in that box, worst when the driver slumberly puffing away his cigarette smokes tanpa sedikit pun rasa bersalah. huh... disgusting!!!

3) sms madness - ever seen people driving while texting messages on their cellphones? ehh... biasalah tu. lagi i tak faham camana people can text message while riding motorbike. and these people really thought they are good at multitasking, aren't they? .... i really tak faham, dan tak mahu faham!

4) ikut kiri jika tidak memotong - siapa tak pernah nampak this signboards should have their eyes checked. it is written in bold white against a blue background board. and the signboards are NEVER small! but why can't people follow it? i personally think those who drive less than 40km/hr as a nuisance and dangerous to other road users.

5) light indicator - ni satu lagi yang i tak faham. beli kereta mahal2, siap ada signal indicator kat side mirror, tapi tak pandai nak guna!

6) ambivalent - why can't people be clear of their directions and know which lane to drive, where to stop, which junction to go in? lagi rasa sakit semacam je bila kita dah ready nak overtake, driver tu dengan ego-nya tekan accelarator. eh! tercabar ke tengok lady driver nak overtake your car?

when can we drive peacefully, happily, smiling and joyfully???

eleven HINTS for life..

1. the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

2. love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. when you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

3. the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. it's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

5. dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

6. always put yourself in other person's shoes. if you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts that person too.

7. a careless word may kindle strife. a cruel word may wreck a life. a timely word may level stress. but a loving word may heal and bless.

8. it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone; but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

9. don't go for looks, they can deceive. don't go for wealth, even that fades away. go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seems bright.

10. it hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

11. a sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

as we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. you'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. you'll fight with your best friend and may even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

so, take many pictures, laugh your heart out, forgive freely, and love like you'll never get hurt. life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sunrise, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Live life to the fullest

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar

3. Eat more food that grows on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy

5. Make time for prayer

6. Play more games

7. Read more books than you did in 2008

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day

9. Sleep for 7 hours

10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day ---- and while you walk, smile

Personality:

1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

2. Don't have negative thoughts on things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

3. Don't over do; keep your limits

4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does

5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip

6. Dream more while you are awake

7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes in the past... That will ruin your present happiness.

9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

13. Smile and laugh more!

14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

1. Call your family often.

2. Give something good to others, each day.

3. Forgive everyone for everything.

4. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

6. What other people think of you is none of your business.

7. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

1. Do the right things.

2. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

3. GOD heals everything.

4. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

5. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

6. The best is yet to come...

7. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.

8. Your Inner most is always happy... So, be happy!

Last but not the least:

Enjoy life as it comes. Don't worry, be happy!

when you say nothing at all

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart

Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they could never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all...

exhausted

i'm exhausted! the day has been really taxing on me. the whole week itself was quite tiring. no, nothing bad at work. nothing bad at home. i'm just plain tired...

returned to KB last friday, after about 5 weeks from the last visit. the first word that came out from my dad's mouth was... "kenapa nampak kurus?". i could only smile, and show-off my dimples. he was not the only one, i've received many similar comments lately, and i have no answer to it. my mum and my sister thought it was because of my 2 weeks stay in korat. my response was, "possible!".

i don't know... this morning i had 3 pieces of french toasts for breakfast. bread can never go wrong with me, in fact, i think i tolerate bread better than any other food in the early morn. 3 pieces tu sebenarnya sikit for me who likes french toasts. after ward round, we went for a gastro-round before attending the meeting. my stomach was craving for food at that time. i took 3 pieces of kueh that i like, but the appetite was gone as soon as i put the kueh sagu into my mouth. fine, no big deal... i just finished off my nescafe ais. but lunch didn't turn out good either. even with satay and nasi impit, which are one of my favourites. to finish-up 5 cucuk satay pun, i paksa je telan. at least i can take a small amount of nasi impit.

i attended 2 meetings today. as you climb-up the career ladder, you are required to attend more and more meetings... which i do not really like. why can't they simplified the meeting, be fast and conscise in whatever issue they're bringing-up. i just hate when people keep arguing for things yang memang tak ade, that have no answer, yang tak de kesudahan. meeting for hours but no conclusion. a waste of time!

the second meeting i attended in the evening was even longer. finished-up at 5.30 pm. this time around, most of the corum are HOD, bosses. as usual, i would feel so small, esp when this is the first meeting for the commitee. but the arguments were much better, tapi susah juga meeting ngan big guns ni, yelah, semua orang pandai2, everybody wants to speak-up, bingitnye... dahlah kami meeting dalam small room... nak tergelak tengok depa ni, nak cakap pun berebut2.

sampai rumah at 6.30 pm. tersadai on the bed. last few days, i've been having sleepless nites. woke-up in the middle of the nite and just can't doze off. i have nothing so pressing to be thought off. entahlah, may be He wants me to bangun solat malam...

hopefully i get peaceful sleep tonite. i need a good rest.

an open letter to edi..

AMARAN: ini entri separa emo, harsh words might be used. if you think you cannot tahan, then jangan baca. BUT to EDI, since this is dedicated dearly to you, silalah layan bebelan ini sampai abis... (untuk makluman, edi has given his permission for me to openly kutuk him in this blog... so, be cool bro! you asked for it!)

dearest edi,

i was really pissed-off yesterday! and you were the culprit. sampai hati you malukan i depan semua orang kat klinik tu... ingat i ni tak de perasaan ke? selamba je kutuk i and my blog. hidup tak sedar di untung!

edi, this is my blog! suka hati i lah nak tulis ape pun! yang you sibuk tu apsal? nak salahkan kita keluar reminder kat dia punye email... bro, mungkin kau jakun, reminder tu computer generated from friendster. tak de kerjalah i nak gi emel semua orang suruh baca my blog updates. kalau pun reminder tu sampai kat you, kalau tak suka, tak yah baca! delete je reminder tu... tak de orang paksa kau baca pun. umur dah 28, benda simple cam gitu pun tak boleh decide sendiri ke? ...sia-sia je masuk faris petra! agaknya kau ni kalau masuk pengakap masa dulu2 mesti selalu sesat masa camping... yelah, tak pandai buat decision, sentiasa di persimpangan dilemma!

lain kali kalau nak komen orang tu, sedarlah diri tu sikit... lima bulan duk kat department kita tu, sape yang sabar je mengajar you tu? you nasib baik... i jarang nak naik angin ngan you. pakai ilmu ke? tahu takut bila dengar i marah kat MO lain. pandai pulak mengadu kat kita macam2. telinga ni jugak yang duk dengar... pas tu dah berani komen kita pedas2 - tak pandai masaklah, garang sampai kawan kita tu abortlah... la ni dah mula pandai nak menjawab, orang tegur sikit, jawab berjela2... sekarang dah naik tocang, mengata kita depan semua orang! dik, tak perlulah i nak declare i ni sape, sendiri mahu ingatlah! paling kurang pun, i ni your supervisor? you tu nak buat cme presentation pun gabra giler, pengecut! hormatlah sikit... cakap siang pandang2! memanglah org ganu ni tak pandai mengenang budi!

bila i rationalized kan what happen yesterday, i rasa sebenarnya you ni in denial mode. sebenarnya you suka nak visit my blog, and read it, tapi tak nak ngaku... biasalah species yang ada gen XY ni, male chauvinist. ego. edi, i ni suka blog-hopping, i tahu, kalau kita tak suka that blog, tak de kerjanya kita nak gi buang masa kat situ. kita visit mana yang kita suka je. jadi ngaku jelah... sebenarnya kau suka jugak nak baca blog ni. kalau tidak masakan malam tadi kau ternanti2 reminder tu datang kat kau punyer emel. ternanti2 i tulis pasal you kat blog ni. huh! giler glamer! biasalah orang bujang... suka publisiti murahan! ngaku jelah... walaupun mungkin kau tak suka, tapi sebenarnya adalah suka juga... haa... tu ambivalent namanye, kalau tak diawasi, nanti kena refer psy!

edi, millenium hair tu dah banyak... wise konon... nak tergelak mendengarnya! tak yah perasan kau tu cam richard gere, yang dekat pun ramai, shahrir samad ada, najib pun ade. baik kau berangan jadi cam najib, boleh gak jadi PM, untung2 dapat bini cam rosmah... haru kau!

oklah, dah banyak i buat dosa malam ni with all the harsh words. tapi, i tak cakap belakang, memang ditujukan khas untuk you! you pun dah tertunggu2 entri ni dari semalam. so, camana? i tahu you mesti senyum je baca ni... you kan perasan hebat! kalau sudi nak bagi komen, saudara dengan hormatnya dipersilakan.

sebagai orang yang berhati mulia dan berperikemanusiaan, i nak jugak minta maaf. yelah, malam ni kita sarcastic, memang sengaja pun. tapi you sewajarnya minta ampun dari kita, jangan sekali2 menyakiti hati orang mengajar kita, tak berkat ilmu! i tak nak menagih keampunan dari you. sendiri mahu ingatlah...

p/s. oops, lupa lak nak pesan. malam ni you duduk sorang2 kat rumah tu kan... jaga2 ye, kutnya malam ni you bernasib baik nampak benda2 yang menakutkan... tidur bukak lampu ye! jangan lupa pakai spek masa tidur, supaya imej menakutkan tu you nampak jelas-jelas. kalau tersedar tengah malam, jeling2 kat sebelah, kutnya ada perempuan cantik berambut panjang sedang menatap wajahmu sambil menarik2 ubanmu... dan tiba-tiba wajahnya berubah... menyeramkan!

i doakan you mimpi hantu malam ni. sediakan quran/yaasin disebelah bantal. gud luck!

black beauty

BMW - black, male, wealthy!

hahaha... that was a caption from a sitcom aired on TV in the 90s - forgot the name, tapi cerita pasal the blacks lah. kalau baca romance novels, they would prefer dark and handsome, with wealth in the background. ish.. ish..ish.. materialistic!

sorry, i'm not writing about men... the difficult spesies! i'll be rambling on the BLACK color.

i love blue, no doubt. but i'm also a big fan of black. mula minat black while i was in my matrix, and became famous for black while in medical school. didn't know how it started, but i think it has got to do with my determination to be a STRONG girl.

i never considered myself manja... tidak sekali-kali! but i am a fairly sensitive person. biasalah... masa teenagers, kita mula nak develop self-identity. i wanted to be strong, smart, determined, competitive and successful. so... in that process, i found black suits me well. hehe... scary tak? nope... i was the cheerful black.

then i started collecting items in black. in fact everything around me was in black, including my hangers, the pail and the soap-case. hehe.. crazykan? my stationaries tak yah ceritalah... pencil-case, pens, files. my alarm clock, sikat, getah ikat rambut, hairband, bandanna and even my sport shoes! my bedsheet pun ada yang blackstripes. in-fact everythinglah. yang colorful was only my bag - which was bright yellow! nasib baik pakai baju kurung yang colorful juga, tapi every year mesti ada sepasang which has black background. kalau pen tu mesti pakai black drawing pens yang architect guna. i believed it makes my handwriting appears neat and smart. biasalah... my notes sentiasa orang pinjam and photocopy, so mesti tulis smartly. and my favorite word at that time was "kacak". semua benda i minat was described as kacak, including cars (bcoz in english they descibe cars as handsome).

black was really my identity sampai my friends will ask me okay or not kalau depa nak beli something in black. dahsyat tak? tapi sampai sekarang pun i kalau boleh tak nak my things sama ngan orang lain, kecuali dengan my loved ones... kalau boleh nak t-shirt sama, jam sama.. romanticlah jugak!

anyways, sekarang black tu dah tak berapa prominent, dah lebih feminine.. and i dah kembali to BLUE which is more calm, cool and soothing - what i really want to be, and like to be. tapi sekarang ni kita dah lebih adventurous and more confident, so color is not really a big factor in my life anymore.

tapi... hitam memang menawan!

true colors

i have always love BLUE.

Blue is cool, calm, soothing.

in my wardrobe, most of my blouses are in blue - various hues of blue. some of my kurungs are also in blue. besides blue, i have many kurungs in the earth tone - from beige to brown, and a lot of greens too. i am an introvert and prefers to keep myself in low profile, therefore i usually wear something in the safe zone... never too bright. i don't like to catch attention and don't like to be too striking. i also prefers kurungs instead of kebaya. i have few kebayas but most of them were worn less than 10 times. many of my friends suggested me to wear kebaya, but i just don't feel comfortable in it.

i don't like pink. even though pink is related to girls and anything related to the female gender, i cannot really tolerate bright, strong, hot pink. rimas tengok bilik or rumah yang decorated in pink. but light or pale pink is really sweet, especially if combined with white - looks so feminine, soft and vulnerable. dalam tak suka pink, i have two blouses and a skirt in light pink. some of my kurungs also have the hues of pink. last week i bought pink batik untuk buat kebaya... ishh macam tak percaya!

recently, i read an article about colors and your personality. i have always been sceptical about this kind of quizzes, but this one was quite true. after answering all the questions, most of my answers were the traits of blue. it also shows that my secondary traits belongs to red color.

so what did it say about the intimate blue?

"laden with virtues such as honesty, loyalty, sincerity and self discipline. self-sacrificing and nurturing, you invariably consider others before yourself.

blues see intimate relationships and creative accomplishments rather than material possessions as the finer things in life. they bring culture and decency to home and society. they are essentially the glue that binds society.

on the downside, your deep emotionality is your worst enemy. overwhelming guilt and worry continue to drive the Blues inward, seeking solace from the only one who understands them - themselves,

you are happiest in careers such as teaching, psychotherapy, music, journalism, banking, politics, engineering, nursing."

hmm... i would personally say that most of what is mentioned are quite true for me. what may not suit me are the careers such as teaching, psychotherapy, politics and nursing - hehehe, i tak minat langsung these fields!

okay what about the red?

"the reds are successful, daring and tenacious. always looking towards the future and putting the puzzle pieces
together in their head. competitive, task-oriented and bold.

you can be demanding, selfish and never wrong
- but also a confident leader in business, law enforcement, medicine, law, the military, accountancy and real estate.

i don't really think red suits me. i am definitely not daring and bold. i do not think i'm selfish and never wrong. i am not very ambitious but i am competitive.
entahlah... other people may judge us differently.

if you want to try this quiz, you can get it from the Women's Weekly magazine (March issue). hmmm... saje je tak de kerja...

enjoy your day. adios!

sound of music

bestnya anak ramai...

remember the old movie - the sound of music? the movie was filmed in 1965, before i was born, but i like it nonetheless.

i love the sound of music. in fact, i have once thought that i have a talent in music. i have fairly sensitive ears, and could easily transfer the tune i have in my mind to instruments. i could play without looking at the notes even though i can read notes very well.

but that has become history... talent yang ada tak dikembangkan! the instruments i like most are the piano and the violin. eventhough i didn't really attend a piano class, i know the keys well. many of my friends in primary school can play piano very well - nina, farlene, tatiana and her sister anna fira, to name a few. farlene rajin ajar i, in fact she played for the school choir group. dulu nak sangat pergi piano class but since we do not have a piano at home, we were not encourage to take the class, susah nak practice. sampai sekarang tangan i geram semacam je kalo nampak piano...

dhuha, actually geram je nak main everytime gi rumah your mum tapi segan ngan your dad! ada juga cakap ngan my hubbyby about buying a piano... kena jeling semacam je... ishh... diam jelah.

i also have an interest in violins. my father can play violin very well, besides having a good voice. pandai berzapin pulak tu (belia contoh - all rounder!). masa year 4 medical school, i planned to take-up violin course for my elective, my friends semua heran... depa kata tak de benda lain ke boleh buat. suka hati i lah nak buat apa pun! i ajak pergi trekking masuk hutan pun my male friends geleng kepala... tu belum ajak pergi mountain climbing! tapi oleh kerana tak de orang yang satu kepala ngan i, terpaksalah i join group ex-mrsm round malaysia buat motivational tour ke mrsm2 seluruh semenanjung, setelah my group's proposal to do an attachment at a children's hospital in Edinburgh failed to get sponsors.

back to music... rasanya sekarang my skill dah banyak berkarat. kalau dulu susah nak sumbang, la ni asyik buat konsert sumbangsih je... the key kat dalam kepala and yang keluar dari peti suara dah tak sama.

the feel to music ni susah orang nak faham, it is not about singing, but the soul of the music itself and its arrangement. yesterday, my niece eda performed on her guitar together with her two male friends (keyboard + vocalist) at prince hotel for her faculty function. how was it edd?

as for me, i still enjoy listening to good music, walaupun dah tak macam dulu. it still makes me smile... humming and singing to the tune, happy and lively.

what's on the box?

i was a 'kaki-tv', since i was introduced to the box till about 13 years ago, when i started working. i watch less of it since i gave birth. but i was a regular during confinement... haha! really enjoy confinement period... pelik bila orang boring cuti dua bulan!

now, the box is controlled by my girl. even her brother seldom got his share. we have another tv upstairs but without astro - so the picture quality is not so good, and we can only watch tv1,2,3 and 9. i'm the only one using it - to watch listen to the news, and sometimes to have a glimpse of the cerita bersambung2 on tv3, now it's Matahari - again, i don't really follow the series.

what i regularly watch nowadays are the followings:

1. Mickey Mouse Club House, PHDN - used to be called "mauskapaus" by sofea. featuring the famous disney characters mickey, minnie, donald, daisy, pluto and goofy, and the mousekatools.

2. My friend's Tigger and Pooh, PHDN - i really like this series. so cute... so innocent... reminds me of my childhood dreams. perasan jadi macam Derby. the song is also very cheerful. menyemai semangat setiakawan and friendship. they have a mystery to be solved each day.

3. Little Einsteins - sofea's favourite. featuring june, anna, quincy, leo and rocket. the little einsteins have a new mission each day, and with a classical music tune. bolehlah kenal lagu Mozart, beethoven etc. sofea tengok cerita ni berulang2 sampai she can even remember the dialogues well. sambil makan nasi pun dia boleh menyampuk sambung the dialogue without even turning to the tv.

4. handy manny - series featuring the "tools" yang boleh bercakap. it teaches teamwork, listening to orders and a lot of nilai2 murni.

5. pocoyo - comel sangat2. sesuai untuk umur less than 4.

6. dora the explorer, and go, diego! a lot of adventure related to the environment and the green world.

7. spongebob squarepants - cute sungguh spongebob and sungguh berbaik sangka dan berhati mulia. suka tengok!

item no. 1 to no. 5 can be watched on the playhouse disney channel. the other two are on nickelodeon.

i can also be glued on the sofa watching Ben 10, Naruto, Jimmy Neutron and Conan. pernah really followed Naruto, sama naik ngan hanif - the story memang interesting, and my favorite character is Sasuke (the one in blue).

dah lama i tak tengok House, Supernatural, CSI, Grey's Anatomy or Gossip Girl. the latest season of American Idol and ANTM pun tak tengok. kalau remote dapat kat tangan pun cuma boleh tengok AFC - best tengok orang masak2, mmm macam sedap je... tapi tak tahu bila boleh cuba.

no wonder perasaan sentiasa rasa cam budak2 je, sebab hari2 duk tengok children's program. tak pelah... demi anak2. at least we know what is good and not for the kids.

ahhh... i need to watch movies!!!

day 1

hello.

a new day.

previously i write in a friendster blog, but choose to make a move to blogspot.

hehe... do not know where and how to start.

feels like first day at work in a new place! you got a lot to tell, but just do not know where to begin.

hah... may be i'll start my rambling some other day, when i feel more at home with blogspot.

till then...

brain power

i'm good with names. i'm good with numbers and dates.

IS THAT A PROBLEM?

my friend finds it pelik when i can remember my colleagues' birthdates, i can also remember birthdates of my family members and my old friends. she finds it even pelik when i can remember the medical students' names, when she never bothered to do so. she even said that i'm just memenatkan my grey matter utk ingat benda2 yang tak significant tu.

entahlah... i rasa i didn't really made an effort to memorise all that, anugerah, alhamdulillah. dulu2 my memory lagi bagus. now i think it is not as good as before coz banyak benda i nak fikir. i happened to remember my colleagues birthdates when i have to type their IC numbers for this CPD thing. when i got to type - i kena tengok, i said it out loud while typing, then i check once again to make sure it is correct, and then i simply ingat. that's all. tak de kerjalah i nak gi hafal birthday org tak pasal2 when they don't even bother to remember mine. it happened subconsciously...

the same thing happenned with the medical students. they introduce themselves, and i have a habit of calling names instead of just panggil orang 'you'. i like people to call me by my name. it tells how significant you are to them. kalau nama pun tak boleh ingat... maksudnya kita ni tak significant langsung pada orang tu. i memang particular bab nama ni, because we are identified by names...

i can even remember my bank account number, the 16 digits, tapi tak semua account no., cuma yang i selalu guna. dulu2 no. phone yang banyak2 tu pun i boleh ingat. tapi since pakai handphone, i dah tak pay much attention to phone numbers.

photographic memory

i don't know... may be i have some form of photographic memory. and i selalu relate something to certain activity or day. mungkin dah jadi habit, so mudah nak ingat. tapi... masalahnya, benda2 yang dulu2 masuk periksa tak semudah tu i boleh ingat, so selalunya i fikir logic. i akan relate it to day-to-day activity, atau me'logic'kan benda tu so that i can remember. what is more important is to understand the concept, things will be easier bila dah faham concept.

tapi, adakah dengan lebih menggunakan otak kita untuk mengingati sesuatu perkara, kita membebankan otak kita? ye ke? i don't think so... instead, i personally think we need to make full use of our brains to make sure it functions superbly. subhanallah... all these are God's gift, semoga sentiasa terpelihara.

since retirement, my father has a habit of doing crossword puzzles. he even has a special book and dictionary for that purpose. to me that is a good exercise for the brain. cuma sekarang dia agak sibuk dengan aktiviti kemasyarakatan, so dah tak de masa nak continue hobby tu.

so how are we suppose to 'relax'kan brain kita. to me ... relaxing is by doing sudoku, playing computer games, watching movies, reading and kemas rumah. some people find cooking and gardening relaxing. tapi sometimes cooking boleh jadi stressful especially bila masakan tak menjadi n orang komen macam2. lagi stressful kalau ada orang nak datang makan kat rumah. tapi kalau masakan menjadi.... ummph it is really rewarding and gives you a cool feeling!

satu lagi yang best utk rehatkan fikiran adalah... tidur! tapi jangan sampai overslept... sakit kepala. and jangan bangun lambat... tak fresh! dan yang paling best i rasa adalah dengan memanjakan diri pergi spa... mmm I LIKE...

cats spa

beauty

haa... cantik tak keira knightley?

beauty is the promise of happiness. beauty always promises, but never gives anything...

kata Kahlil Gibran - beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart... but we live in a world where people are deluded by BEAUTY!

pergilah mana2 dalam dunia ni, mesti semua orang nak yang cantik, yang comel, yang cun... nak rumah besar yang cantik, nak kereta yang sleek and handsome, nak spouse yang cantik or handsome, kacak. nak anak2 yang comel2. dah fitrah manusia suka benda2 yang cantik dan elok.

but beauty is very subjective. the kelabits in sarawak thought that in order to be beautiful, the ladies need to put on heavy ear-rings, sampai cuping telinga jadi panjang... mereka kata cantik, kita rasa pelik...

the africans would put saucers dekat bibir mulut anak2 perempuan mereka. each year they would change the saucer to a bigger size, so that mulut anak perempuan tu jadi besar. pada mereka cantik... kita rasa jelik....

mula2 i tengok proton JUARA dulu, i kata siapalah yang approve design kereta tu... tak menarik langsung! tapi banyak juga i jumpa atas jalan... and ramai yang kata it is a very practical vehicle.

so beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. memang harus untuk kita mendapatkan yang elok pada pandangan mata kita. beauty comes as much form the mind as from the eye.

so yang mana cantik? camry atau accord atau peugeot 407 atau mazda6?

peugeot407

it is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness...

that which is striking and beautiful is not always good;

but that which is good is always beautiful!

i don't like standard beauty - there is no beauty without strangeness!