how was it? not bad. cuma masa mula2 balik from KL, rasa sungguh lemah masuk rumah yg agak berserabut. i left home for 3 days..
i told hubbyby that we are both busy people, but we can live without a maid, we have experienced that before. cuma kena help each other. hubbyby said - no problem, cuma jangan cepat marah. haha.. kalau everything kemas and in order, i tak meradanglah..
now, i do the laundry every other night, and hang all the wet clothes dari malam. bila pagi cuma angkat bawa keluar ke ampaian. the dining table must be cleared as soon as we finished our meals. the children need to kemas all their toys after main. everybody should put their dirty clothes inside the bakul, jangan tunggu ummi kutip, otherwise mulut ummi bising. i have no problem lipat kain bcoz i memang tak suka tgk kain tak berlipat. clothes are ironed before being kept in the closet. cuma perlu iron tudung every morning.
cuma i belum sempat masak. main reason.. gas habis and hubbyby belum tukar tong gas. so... selamat! pagi2 the children makan cereals and we makan roti. i need to make sure i woke up at least at 5.30am, otherwise a little kelam kabut. yesterday breakfast kat hospital coz bangun lewat.
cuma... the children nampak sangat berbeza. they don't like coming home to an empty house. tak de org sambut bila balik. sunyi. they would follow everywhere i go, sampai rasa tak de privacy. mereka takut tgk tv kat bawah without me. tgk tv kat atas pun mereka tak nak without me. so, bila i mandi and solat, they would be in my room. lepas tu semua activities must be done together. depa rasa sunyi without the 'kakak'.
sofea pernah nangis bila tgk bilik 'kakak' kosong, and sedih bila teringat 'kakak'. kata sofea - kakak selalu jaga sofea dan mandikan sofea. sofea sedih kakak tak de. i pulak yang terikut sedih..
i tak delah mengharapkan dia balik. tapi kalau dia kembali, life would be a lot easier.
i need to get use to cooking again. its not difficult, cuma perlu dibiasakan.
July 29th - the day my sister Bibi Zarina was born. today is also Makmun's birthday (elly's hubby).
july 29th 1981 - the day prince charles and the late lady diana kahwin kat westminster abbey, ingat lagi tengok live telecast kat tv - like a fairy tale's wedding. rumah kita dulu pun banyak magazine pasal charles n diana.
kay, to my dearest sister, kak na or Bb or Ateh - happy birthday... tak yah sebut lah yang ke berapa ye. asalkan kita bersyukur ngan hayat kehidupan yang dikurniakan... alhamdulillah.
kak na... jangan perasanlah, tapi rasanya you are the most beautiful among kita adik beradik. hehe.. siap pernah tulis dalam diary tu.. perasan! sorilah, kami kalau masa kemas jumpa diary lama, kami baca je. so terbongkarlah rahsia you perasan cantik.. haha..
kak na juga dari kecik lagi dah macam org town - makan pakai fork and spoon, speaking org putih tu memang biasalah.. Kalau sue and kak ya were school dancers kat ZS, kak na ni bandgirl - hehe... asyik pakai skirt pendek. biasalah bandgirl zaman dulu2, mana ada pakai seluar panjang, mesti pakai mini skirt, and baju band yang banyak tali2 and rambu.
masa secondary school, suka sangat2 tengok donny and marie show, and suka stay-up malam2 tengok movie, and kaki baca mills and boon. camana you boleh suka baca MB? hee... i tak leh layan MB. masa teenagers biasalah agak nakal. suka duk dapur buat2 rajin cuci pinggan, walaupun sebenarnya mengintai org gi surau. youlah kan yang suka tgk anak master mad tu - syamsuri ke sheridan? and suka tengok hasnor, abg iluni. and kononnya malu giler ngan hasnan. hehe... tak sangka lepas gi uk jadi baik pulak. haha...
inilah lagu donny and marie yang i paling suka, tapi tak de video. so just listen to the song.
after spm, you straight gi UK. initially kat camborne, then moved to plymouth. suka sangat masa you kat UK, coz you always wrote letters and cards to us. masa tu i memang berangan sakan nak study kat UK macam you and kak ni. then you sibuk nak kahwin kat UK, but ayah tak bagi, so you balik nikah kat m'sia.
apa yang paling best about kak na? rajin berkemas. i memang minat kalau kerja kat dapur or kemas apa2 pun ngan you. kerja memang cekap, efficient and we prefer everything to be teratur and kemas. kerja pun pantas. kalau lepas kenduri kat rumah che' tu, org mesti kagum tengok efficientnya kita kerja. cuma... kita ni slow sikit bab masak. i masih ingat masa you duduk taman setali maju kat kuantan, meals kat rumah you siap order from catering service, dia datang hantar dalam mangkuk tingkat. masa tu belum ada maid.
you are also an excellent engineer. eventhough masa student you tak delah excellent sangat, tapi bila dah kerja, you memang excellent. mana2 pergi mesti jadi anak emas boss. ingat lagi you datang bagi ceramah kerjaya kat my mrsm kuantan. phew... bangga betul bila yang bagi lecture tu my own sister!
tak sangka juga, dalam sibuk bercarrier, anak dah tujuh orang, you masih sempat buat masters selepas anak keenam. dan pernah accident sampai your nissan x-trail terbalik kat karak highway masa drive sorang2 utk gi UKM.
you are a beautiful, independent, tough, strong-willed, smart and charismatic women. semoga terus successful in your life, career, dunia dan akhirat. may all your children - saif, tasneem, hannan, najihah, imaan, solehah and ammar dapat membahagiakan dan menyejukkan hati you and abg din selamanya.
i tak dapat cari vid donny singing puppy love yang best, but i hope you'll enjoy this clip from donny singing Any Dream Will Do .
i went to a symposium last week - the reason why i had been quiet for the past few days. it was in KL and i didn't bring my captain future along. elok pun tak bawak. internet connection kena bayar. i kan sedikit kedekut!
the symposium was good. makin tertarik pada paeds ophthal. masa houseman dulu, my paediatrician bukan main lagi suruh i buat paeds. tapi i told him that my interest is in surgery. lagipun i mudah kesian ngan budak2.
seronok tengok the speakers. there were many speakers, but yang i paling suka dr sonal and dr gangadhara from singapore and dr steven hing from australia. many people can present and can talk, but not many people can deliver their message well, and at the same time make their talk very interesting. it is an art. some people are just gifted.
a great teacher inspires... dari dulu i believe in this.
dr sonal might be serious, but her surgeries were superb. ok, i haven't seen her communicating with patients, but i can tell that she must be very strict and serious at work. her slides are very good. the pictures were very illustrative and the videos spoke for itself. her explanation is vey clear, with clear crispy voice. message well delivered.
so does dr gangga.
but dr steven hing is really cool. suka tengok dia. he is about 50 y.o, but is still very stylo. rambut cam trojan, pacak kat tengah dari depan sampai belakang. sekali tengok macam tak sikat langsung. he is funny, humble and down-to-earth. very sincere bila dia nak cerita about something, you can feel it with his words. message well delivered. cuma bila bercakap, the words macam berebut2 nak keluar, so not very clear. very simple, and even only wore a t-shirt on his sunday presentations.
i admire people who can speak well in public. sometimes, their language is not that perfect but their confidence and ability to communicate well hide all the weaknesses.
at this age, i'm still nervous to talk in public. plan nak cakap lain, keluar benda lain. some people baca from a well prepared text, but i don't like to do that. i prefer to speak freely and spontaneously. kalau baca text, nampak lagi nervous coz you need to memorise things and need a lot of synchronization. kalau terlupa and terskip sesuatu, it will be very obvious.
a great teacher inspires... who are my great teachers? dato' khalid kadir, prof raymond, prof muhaya, prof nasir (now a politician), prof ishak. and i admire these 2 professors for their excellence way in delivering their views - prof zabidi and prof aziz baba.
profesor - dulu, pernah sorang patient mendoakan agar satu hari nanti i boleh jadi profesor. terima kasihlah pak cik. but i don't think i can be a good teacher... garang sangat!
this entry would make my july as the most productive month since i started blogging. 18 published entries - up till july 23rd.
it makes me wonder.... did i have so much free time that i was able to write and blog? not counting the time spent browsing the net for many other reasons. kononnya environmentalist.. tapi actually, by surfing the net, you are contributing more to global warming. hehe.. cakap tak serupa bikin!
haha.. hari ini i telah berjaya untuk tidak hadir satu meeting. told my boss yesterday, i won't go to that meeting today. reason - i need to be at the perioperative course that i conducted. another reason was i kecik hati sangat2 they didn't put my name in the minutes of the meeting. seolah2 i tak wujud. hey! i was the first person to be there at the first meeting. i am always punctual, and i waited for everyone, and stayed till the meeting ended at nearly 5.30pm.
boss persuaded me to go with her just now, but i apologized and said a firm NO. i have never been this bold, i rasa boss pun wondering what's happening with me. i am not going. if i was so insignificant and invincible to them, why should i be bothered by the meeting. i couldn't care less. they didn't even send me the minutes of the previous meeting. i pun dah malaslah nak aktif2 lagi. dulu memanglah... kita sentiasa orang kuat. but i only work for people who believe in me, who sees my potential, and who can appreciate my thoughts and opinions.
cerita lain..
going to KL tomorrow for UM Paediatric Ophthal Symposium. friday till sunday. am i going to bring captain future along? i have a friend who will be sharing the room with me, so mungkin tak delah boring sangat. so, tak pelah captain, i'll bring you some other time. hubbyby and the children mungkin balik KB.
my maid is leaving to medan. also tomorrow. but her flight is earlier, air asia 8.20 am. mine is MAS 10.05 am. kami lepaskan dia pergi sendiri. pandai2lah bawa diri kat LCCT tu. dulu kami hantar dia sampai KLIA. dia bawak balik 2 big bags and another 2 small bags. katanya nak kembali, so i bought her a return ticket, charged to her account. dulu, belanja pulang i tanggung sebagai penghargaan. harap dia datang balik, life would be a little difficult without her.
she is a good maid. i have to admit that. walau anita ni garang, i tak pernah marah dia. i was brought up never to raise my voice with older people, she is older than me. but i have always been firm, and she knows when i tak suka dia buat satu2 benda. cuma i tak suka bila dia suka berdalih. berlaku jujurlah dengan siapa2 pun. kejujuran itu penting.
sedih juga.. pastinya dia akan cium tangan i, and hug me, and cries. the indons are always like that. kadang2 tak tahu pulak.. ori ke berlakon. tapi kita memang mudah tersentuh, dan mudah nak nangis. itu memang weakness, walau control macho. dah 3 tahun kita bersama, sedikit sebanyak, bonding tu ada. i don't like parting with people.. sayu dan sedih.
petang tadi turut rasa sedih, a colleague has to leave the dept. i've talked to 2nd boss and boss too, but negative answer. she talked to boss petang tadi, but it seems that boss cannot do anything. will take her out for a special makan2 when she is back.
semua ketentuan Tuhan ada hikmahnya. cuma kita yang perlu berfikir..
hari ni cuti. keputeraan sultan terengganu. israk dan mikraj juga.
ikut plan asal, hari ini perlu bereskan kerja. mesti. wajib. dah lama kerja ni tertangguh, perlu siap sebelum rabu. datang khamis, aku perlu hasil kerja itu. otherwise, aku tak boleh maafkan diri aku sendiri.
tapi all work and no play makes jack a dull boy. ahh... sungguh boring! ada beberapa sebab kerja masih belum selesai. tiada scanner. the old scanner tak compatible with all the computers that we have in the house now. nak beli baru? rasanya malas nak tambah barang dalam rumah ni sehingga kami pindah rumah baru. banyak sangat barang, serabut! dan masih banyak barang dalam store yang kotaknya masih belum dibuka sejak di bawa dari rumah lama.
sunyi.....
sepi....
sofea dan hanif ke amethyst. mereka seronok kalau dapat ke amethyst. hubbyby melarikan mereka dari aku supaya aku boleh tekun bekerja. tapi bila mereka tiada sungguh sunyi. tiada org utk bercakap. tiada benda utk dibebelkan.
cuma ada aku dan bibik. sejak peristiwa akhir june lalu, aku dan bibik tidak lagi mesra seperti dulu. aku tak suka orang yang tidak jujur. kita jaga dia dgn baik, dia sanggup membelakangkan kita. kita rasa tertipu. bukan berdendam, tapi geram.
semalam pagi dia menangis, minta izin pulang ke medan. katanya anak sakit. susah untuk aku percayakan dia lagi. berapa lama mahu pulang? satu bulan. aku benarkan cuma dua minggu. dia mohon utk beli bagasi lebih besar. jauh di sudut hati dapat aku rasakan, dia bagai mahu pulang terus. mungkin tidak mahu kembali ke sini lagi. diakan sudah bersuami.
aku perlu faham. mungkin dia sunyi. mungkin dia rasa bersalah. lantas sudah tidak selesa lagi. belas perasaanku melihat dia termenung jauh ke luar pintu dapur. bibik jiran sebelah juga sudah tiada, mereka sudah pindah.
belas, aku juga tersentuh. naluri seorang ibu dan naluri wanita. aku faham. tapi aku sengaja berkeras. ego. kejamkah aku? kenapa aku perlu membuat dia terus rasa bersalah? dia sebenarnya cukup baik sebagai bibik. kalau dia pergi, aku mungkin tidak mencari ganti. dan hidup kami perlu di orientasi kembali.
prestasi captain future merudum akhir2 ini. kenapa? ntahlah. internet connection asyik terputus2 biarpun icon streamyx tiada masalah. program juga kerapkali hang. virus? anti-virus updated.
naik main games pun tak seronok. slow. movement tak mantap.
yeah... thanx to MukaBuku. since joining FB, i have rekindled with many old friends, especially from my primary school, ZS, whom i last met about 25 years ago (makes me sounds old!).
the outsiders - tom cruise, emilio estevev, tommy howell, ralph machio, rob lowe, patrick swayze, matt dillon.
yesterday i met Jue. seronok jumpa, she came here for a business presentation and we went out for lunch. alhamdulillah, jue is very successful now. monthly income sampai 60K. owns a BMW, but she came with camry yesterday. married with one child. anak pun sekolah kat Alice Smith International School. but Jue is as humble as before. yelah.. dia memang org senang pun, before masuk ZS dulu, she stayed in Manila. still cakap kelantan pekat walalu duduk KL dah lama.
i pun dah dapat contact semula ngan Nina, Farlene, Mimi, Elin, MIra, Irene and many more. Nina and Mimi dah quit their jobs, being fulltime housewives, tak pelah hubby depa semua kaya2. farlene is now a lawyer, working with his father's firm in KL. Elin kat Sapura. Irene kat SIRIM.
What surprised me is Mira. sungguh tak sangka, Nik Samira Nik Mustafa who used to be so shy and quiet is now a successful script-writer and film publisher. pernah tengok films - Cinta and Sepi, and now Setem? TV series - Kekasihku Seru and Nur Kasih? well she is MIRA MUSTAFA, wife to Khabir Bhatia, the film director. She is the publisher of the above films and tv series, filmscape.
i pernah tengok Mira Mustafa accept award on TV dulu, and pernah kata - eh, dia ni macam nik samira je. tengok2, betul pun. masih sama cam dulu. before buat cerita & film, she was with NST.
just now, i had a long chat with Mimi. happy sangat-sangat, seronok sampai more than 1 hour kami chat. masa sekolah rendah dulu, kami kaki gayut kat telefon, sampai my sister Liza selalu marah. buat homework pun dlm phone. then kami sama2 minat badminton. yang bezanya, i love 'badminton', tapi mimi suka badminton sebab minat rashid sidek. dlm umur 12 years old dulu, mimi dah pandai and berani call rashid sidek. she always called him. and biasalah... i ni kan good listener, maka kita sentiasa menjadi tempat mengadu.
Mimi ni memang smart. after ZS, she went to TKC - tg khursiah college. and we lost contact since then. she went to UK after SPM, and later work with few banks. she got married 2 years ago, and is blessed with one child, now 7 months old. she is now pregnant again.
ramai lagi yang i belum dapat cari... i have been googling for betty and hanis. they were my best buddies. hanis and me pernah conteng kat meja "perry king - hanis and nita will never end". we were MU fans. i minat bryan robson & mike duxbury, hanis suka graeme sharp from everton. pernah sampai perang mulut ngan betty and elin yang masa tu minat brighton.
old memories.. teringat zaman 'tiger beat', ZAS force & the cylons, outsiders, kebun sains - our rapunzel longbeans, performing at the year-end school parties, and the last dance together. and we wrote our names on the bola netball. and we cried.. on the last day at school..
came 1984 - i went to mrsm ktn, betty and mimi to TKC, irene to mrsm KB, elin and hanis stayed at ZS. and we lost contact. many stayed in ZS including nina, farlene and many others. they were also smart, but since they came from a well-off family, they prefered to stay with their parents.
but me and nina continue to write to each other till our days in Uni. she went to UK, and we last met in 1995, when she returned for good.
july 19th 1989 - the day my niece, Tasneem, was born.
Happy birthday, Taz. so ada dapat lavender bouquet ke? haa... enda dah tanya kat FB, kena jawab ye.. i'm waiting for the answer!
lavender, i think you are the only one among your siblings yang tak pernah gemuk masa kecik. yang lain semuanya chubby. but you were cute, nonetheless. paling enda ingat, you masa dlm umur 2 tahun, cukup minat ngan org laki. asal jalan2 jumpa mana2 lelaki (dlm rumah kitalah!), you mesti dgn selamba dan manjanya merebahkan badan you ke ribaan lelaki tersebut. hee... tak malu!
bila dah besar sikit, dlm umur 3-4 tahun, you memang nakal giler!. paling tak leh lupa masa enda & seri jaga you all masa ummi gi umrah. hee... sabar jelah. dahlah abang saif tu nakal. kami kena betul2 kunci rumah tu supaya you and hannan tak leh keluar gi playground kat sebelah rumah tu. tapi korang memang kuat berusaha, you tolak dining chair tu ke pintu depan, then you suruh si hannan yang sentiasa menurut perintah tu duduk atas kerusi tu, and you panjat atas hannan supaya you boleh buka selak pintu yang atas sekali. tapi... hehe... korang tu kecik, mana sampai! enda n seri gelak je, cuma takut korang jatuh jelah.
lagi satu, bila nak tidur and nak pakaikan diapers... hee... kamu sungguh jahat and saje je nak wee wee masa tu. saje je nak sakitkan hati kami yang dgn paksarela menjadi babysitters you all. tapi kami dapat upah tau...
bila dah sekolah rendah, satu soalan yang tak boleh enda lupakan was bila you dgn innocentnya tanya enda - enda, 'gelenya' tu ape? hehe.. mesti selalu kena marah ngan ummi ni!
alhamdulillah dah besar ni, baik pulak budak ni. SPM pun mantap. ingat nak ambik medic, tapi gi buat industrial maths pula. tak pelah.. apa2 pun tak pe asalkan minat and excellent.
ucapan skema utk tasneem - selamat harijadi ke-20. belajar rajin2. ingat, jgn hampakan ummi dan abah, abg dan adik2. bina keperibadian kita, biar ada jati diri dan berpendirian. semoga sukses in your studies and jadi excellent student. i believe in you. be good and all the best.
MrX added me on facebook! haha.. berfikir2 juga. akhirnya accept je. bukannye ada benda pun. cerita dulu-dulu. kita pun bknnya serius sgt dulu. siap lari2 lagi, sengaja stay lama2 kat spital, malas balik rumah coz kena jawab his calls. kita cuma tak pandai nak berpura-pura... salah ke? tak de chemistry. tak pandai nak buat2 suka, tak real!
tapi, kita kalau suka orang... haha.. dahsyat jugak! tak nampak muka dia, nampak motor dia pun tak pe. NS 2743, bukan motor baru pun, tapi lain dari yang lain. bila gi solat kat surau hostel tu, mesti nak duduk sebelah kakak dia. his niece yang sebaya ngan kita (law student) pun ntah camana boleh jadi kawan baik kita. kad atm kita pun asyik kena telan sebab asyik ingat matrix no. dia. paling seronok bila cam ada chemistry... color baju asyik sedondon. haha... kelakar tul zaman dulu2. siap pasang angan2, bila ada kereta nanti mesti pakai no. NAF .... ada makna tu! hem.. that was esperanto, and he was the one yang tolong proposekan MrX to me. haru..
itulah dunia dan manusia. kita suka dia, dia suka orang lain. orang lain suka kita, kita pulak tak suka orang tu. kadang2 sama-sama suka tapi pengecut, tak tahu mana nak mula. kadang2 suka sama suka, tapi.. ada je halangannya.
tu cerita dulu-dulu..
now, kalau keluar jalan2, kita selalu perhatikan dan gelakkan budak2 muda yang kononnya baru nak belajar2 couple. honestly, kita tak pandai nak couple zaman dulu. kita suka berkawan je. ber'couple' tu tak real pada kita. mesti asyik nak impress couple je. tapi kalau kita berkawan, kita tak perlu buat2 baik, tak perlu berlakon. kita cuma perlu jadi diri kita. no pretending. be yourself. kalau orang suka kita, then dia suka the 'real' kita, bukan perempuan yang control ayu.
but you'll know when the feeling come creeping deep inside. you'll feel comfortable together. the day won't be the same without him. seeing his name when the phone rings and getting his text messages makes you smile. you'll feel much better when you know he cares. you'll know he'll be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. we're just humans.
to love is to share. to love is to care. sincerity. honesty.
love means never having to say you're sorry.
my niece, Anne on her wedding day.
to those who are still single, doalah untuk jodoh yang baik, yang boleh menerima kita seadanya, yang boleh membimbing kita dan membahagiakan kita dunia akhirat.
tak perlu criteria panjang berjela, tak perlu harta melimpah ruah, tak perlu rupa sehandsome tom cruise atau secantik aishwarya rai. kalau baik akhlak serta pekertinya, halus budi bahasanya, teratur solatnya, menghormati yang tua, menyayangi yang kecil, insyallah baiklah dia. biarlah dia seorang yang cekal dan kuat jiwanya, lembut hatinya, sabar dan tabah menghadapi cabaran, kerana pelayaran hidup ini tidak selalunya di air tenang, penuh ranjau dan duri.
a good friend of mine, Mr Saviour pernah kata - perempuan ni macam cake, lagi lembut and lagi cantik cake tu, lagi org laki suka. tapi kita tak setuju ngan dia. jawapan kita pada mr saviour - buat apa cake cantik and lembut kalau tak tahan lama? dibiarkan pada suhu bilik, maka cairlah cream yang menyelaputi cake tu, salah cara potong, hancurlah cake tu, kalau dibiarkan dua tiga hari, berkulat pula. kalau nak pilih cake pun, pilihlah yang asasnya kuat, macam fruit cakes, tegap tapi lembut, fruitful pulak tu, dan tahan lama compared ngan other cakes. nak lebih cantik, bolehlah letak marzipan dressing, tak cair. sebab tu, wedding cakes mostly are fruitcakes dressed in marzipan... well, what say you?
kata dhuha, dia mahukan cinta tiga segi - aku, dia dan Allah. best of luck, doo!
July 15th - is the day my sister, Sufiawati was born. she is my 4th sister, but due to unknown reason, we just call her Sue. in fact starting from her, we just call other sisters by names, without the traditional pre-fix "kak".
sue is a petite lady. if i'm considered small, she is even smaller than me. beza umur 7 tahun, tapi when we get to sit together, the age gap just do not exist. i feel so comfortable talking to her. we can talk for hours... and share alot of things together.
during primary school, sue is the school dancer for ZS. kalau tengok album lama, banyaklah gambar sue sedang menari kat school concert and speech day. biasalah ZS zaman dulu2, speech day and school concert mesti happening punye. she was so comel and cute. but sue that i remember the most is during her teenage years, masa she was in SMS Pengkalan Chepa. selalu ingat pergi hantar sue gi sekolah tu bila tiba hari sabtu, and go and collect her bila cuti sekolah mula. boleh ingat panjat tangga hostel sekolah tu and minum2 kat the school canteen. and she always bring home her school friends yang suka layan i main2. yelah... masa kita kecik2 dulu, orang sukalah nak layan kita. i rasa zaman you kat SMS was the best part of your life... you were so yourself, young, energetic, happy-go-lucky and lively.
bila you nak fly gi US, ingat lagi susahnya nak shopping baju utk you coz nak cari kat adult, besar sangat; nak cari kat children kecik sangat. yelah... 1982, KB tu bukan ada benda sangat. last2 gi shopping last minute kat KL.
amongst all, i think you are the toughest. banyak dugaan dan cabaran kehidupan, sejak kat US lagi. memang betullah kata orang, dugaan Tuhan itu memang diberi pada mereka yang terpilih, yang memang Allah tahu boleh menghadapinya. i memang salute habis kat you. you are one in a million. abg chik is really lucky to have you. memang patut pun you jadi menantu kesayangan.
while in US, sue was lucky when dia tak jadi ikut kawan2nya pergi satu tempat tu. the car met with an accident and 7 malaysian students died. it was in amarillo, texas. it was a big news in malaysia, berita utama. and it turned-out that it was you who mandikan jenazah kawan2 tu. i'm sure it was hard for you, pengalaman tak leh lupa sampai mati.
then there was also an incident in which a lady entered your house in US with a gun in one hand. but you handled it well. you also met with a car accident with a drunken driver. sampai lama berzaman you tak bawak kereta, phobia kot. la ni dah ok agaknya. so, dad finally gave in when you ask to get married in US. you only returned after dhuha was born.
an architecture graduate but choose to become a housewife. i guess, dad never said a word about it; mungkin ada but since you were already married, dad tak kacaulah. lagipun you balik zaman recession. life was not easy in the beginning. but both of you are strong, tough, stubborn and never give-up. perseverance might be the correct word. Allah is always with those yang sentiasa sabar, never give-up. and i never heard you complaining, not a word. you are the back-bone of abg chik's success. alhamdulillah, sekarang menuai hasil kesabaran masa lalu.
to sue, i really treasure the wonderful moments spent together. zaman giler2 main badminton, sama2 tunggu midnight movie dulu-dulu. dan seronoknya spent time talking and sharing our joys and sorrows in life. rasanya kita tak pernah gaduh. hehe... i kan adik yang baik! rumah you lah jadi tempat i and seri lepak2 bila tiba weekend masa kami student UKM/UM dulu. and now, since you in nilai, rumah you jugalah yang jadi persinggahan kalau kami perlu gi airport.
yes, we seldom meet each other nowadays. dalam setahun mungkin 2-3 kali je, but you are always close to my heart. remember that we are always there for you, in good times and bad times. i pernah giler2 menangis tengok satu movie tu coz it really reminds me of you. you are such a wonderful lady, equipped with beauty, strength, patience and perseverance. may dhuha, hajar, epi, sarah and nu'man bring you happiness dunia akhirat.
since you memang m.nasir's fan (hehe.. dapat hubby pun rupa cam mnasir), here's a wonderful song by him... Suatu Masa. hope you enjoy it. nanti suruhlah abg chik mainkan kat piano tu before gi kerja esok.
i wish you all the best and many happy returns. luv ya - now, then and forever..
that's it. my one week "off" is finally over. esok kene start keje balik.
ohh.... liatnya! i am on leave today but was actually working, somewhere else. kerja yang bawak balik ari tu sikit pun tak sentuh. biasalah tunggu last minute. biasanya bila last minute, idea mencurah2 dan tiba2 kita boleh jadi sungguh productive. this is a universal problem utk ramai orang. buat2 menyesal je la, lain kali mesti buat lagi!
ari ni puasa. malam tadi tak sahur. entah berapa kali alarm hp tu menjerit2 dan entah berapa kali kita snooze kan semula, mintak discount 10 minit. when i finally became 'alert', it was already 6 am. but since dah niat nak puasa, there's nothing to lose.
bila puasa... mulalah mengidam nak makan itu ini. masa kat rantau tadi mengidam nak makan caramel pudding. sungguh bersemangat nak balik buat pudding tu. dah siap called k.syam mintak check if ada bahan tak cukup. tapi my journey home tadi slow sikit, banyak lorry. and i felt so tired masa berhenti solat kat masjid kg. pulau kerengge, nasib tak doze-off. before sampai rumah singgah kedai beli barang yang tak cukup.
finally reached home at around 5.30pm. sofea was asleep. hanif was watching kapten boleh, and k.syam belum masak, despite was told to prepare the food earlier. mmhh.. dah cam gitu, malaslah nak berebut dapur ngan dia. the kitchen is small and dia perlu guna kedua2 tungku dapur tu. tak pelah... i buat pudding tu esok.
tak dapat pudding, tiba2 mengidam cake secret recipe. siap bukak internet and mencuci mata ngan cakes at secret recipe site. mesti beli. kalau tak nanti mengidam lagi. so... kita order apple crumble and chocolate cheese. hubbyby will go and get it for me. nafsu-nafsi.
selalunya orang lebih semangat nak kerja after cuti. tetapi saya tidak . rasa sungguh malas. arghh....
ikhlaskan niat. hope i'll be able to wake-up with zest tomorrow morning. smile... and the whole world will smile at you. ahh.. tetiba teringat lagu Bad English - smile at me!
ok. hubbyby dah balik. kita nak gi makan apple crumble and chocolate cheese. jangan jealous... yum! yum! ;D
went to the parents' meeting at SS1 this morning. i talked to hanif's class teacher. according to her, besides Dina and Aleesya, three other girls have been admitted. and now, the whole school is closed till next wednesday. they should return to school on thursday until further notice.
Dina, Aleesya and Nabila are best friends and sit together in class. all three are infected. Kamelia and another girl whose name i've forgotten tak de lah close sangat ngan depa, but being girls, they must have played together. I don't know whether there has been spread to other classes besides hanif's 3 Rasional and 6 Effective. mungkin ada, and that may be the reason why the whole school is closed.
hanif is enjoying his home quarantine. although he is not allowed out of the house, he is given privilege utk dapat apa yang dia nak. he has been downloading games from the internet and spent the whole day playing games. yang seronoknya ummi boleh tumpang sekaki. i don't want him to get bored. last thursday, his cousin Akim (also SS1 but different class) ikut tak gi sekolah. and he came over together with his PS2. they spent the whole daytime together sampailah bila i balik. then i told Akim, he was not supposed to come over bcoz hanif is on quarantine. we just want to minimise possible spread of the disease. tapi now, bila the whole school is closed, can Akim come and stay over during the school hours? yelah, takkan dia nak duduk sorang2 kat rumah.
sofea does not understand why she cannot share hanif's food and cannot drink from the same glass with hanif. she doesn't seem to understand why hanif cannot follow us out of the house. she is also not allowed to play out of the house. i told her that if we get infected, we can get bad respiratory problems and we can die because of it.
hope all of this will be over soon, and we can return to our normal life.
breakfast hari ni nasi lemak. kita memang suka nasi lemak. dulu, kini dan selamanya. so far, belum jumpa nasi lemak sedap kat KT. home-made nasi lemak is much better. orang ganu pelik, makan nasi lemak ngan ikan tongkol. nasi lemak mestilah makan ngan sambal ikan bilis, tapi kena pilih ikan bilis yang eloklah. kalau ada sambal udang or sambal sotong tambah berselera. kadang2 boleh juga tambah ayam goreng.
pagi tadi kita makan dua pinggan. hmm... my dua pingan is equal to satu pinggan my hubbyby. tapi itu dah kira baguslah! cuma tadi tak de cucumber, so.. ada kurenglah sikit.
nasi lemak paling best mestilah masakan ibu. tapi, since my mom was a teacher, selalunya nasi lemak ni dia buat time weekend je. hari biasa, makan roti, or beli nasi lemak neighbour. sedap juga. kita juga tak boleh lupa nasi lemak yang dijual my friend, mariani, kat ZS dulu. mak dia buat nasi lemak tu, dan dia jual kat sekolah. sedap... sampai cikgu pun boleh kirim ngan dia.
satu lagi yang kita suka makan utk breakfast is nasi kerabu. orang kelantan... mesti suka nasi kerabu. selain dari mak punya, kita ingat lagi betapa sedapnya nasi kerabu arwah mak cik yam (auntie). dia jual depan rumah dia kat kampung. sungguh sedap. selain dari kerabu yang wajib, i suka makan nasi kerabu ni ngan daging bakar. ayam bakar and ayam percik pun oklah. kalau ada telur masin sedap juga. warna nasi tu kita tak kisah, putih ke, biru ke, kuning ke, asalkan nasi kerabu. yang sedapnya mestilah pada tumisnya. nasib baik kat KT ni dah jumpa kedai nasi kerabu yang sedap. so tak de masalah kalau mengidam.
nasi dagang... kita kurang suka nasi dagang sebab ia buat kita jadi ngantuk. tapi kalau diberi pilihan, kita suka nasi dagang terengganu compared tu nasi dagang kelantan. why? sebab gulai ikan dia lain sikit, and pedas sikit. tapi kelebihan nasi dagang kelantan, kita ada banyak lauk - ayam, udang and ikan. biasalah... kita memang kurang suka ikan tongkol/aya.
dan kita juga sangat suka laksam. sedapnya laksam pada kuahnya, mesti cukup pekat dan cukup ikannya. dan juga pada sambalnya. laksa pun bolehlah, tapi kalau laksa, kita prefer laksa penang. mesti cukup asam pedasnya. masa balik brazil dulu, sampai KLIA je terus cari laksa penang... rindu sangat masakan pedas2.
org kata, gi penang makanlah nasi kandar. ntahlah, kita kurang minat indian food or masakan mamak. kecuali roti canai - satu keping tak cukup, paling kurang 2 keping. masa kecik2, kita makan roti canai ngan gula. bila dah besar, kita tak faham kenapa dulu kita makan ngan gula. kuah kari campur dhal... best! kat KB ada roti canai cotek' dekat ngan sutera inn. dulu, hari khamis, bila habis ward round, boss bawak kami makan roti canai cotek' ramai-ramai.
kenapa duk cerita pasal food ni? may be bcoz my appetite was so good in penang. i think the different environment and cara masakan yang berbeza dari biasa yang bukak my selera. mungkin juga kita lebih relax and tenang kat sana. tak de benda2 yang memeningkan kepala.
tadi cikgu hanif call. esok ada another meeting with parents regarding H1N1 at his school. apa dia nak cakap esok ye? i pun tak tahu apa berita aleesya, rumahnya pun macam tak de orang, kereta pun tak de. hope she is fine.
esok nak breakfast apa ye? oh... esok kita nak puasalah...
when i was to go to penang, i was worried bcoz 5 cases of confirmed H1N1 came from a pharmaceutical conference there. but on returning home, i was told that my son, hanif is on home-quarantine, for H1N1. itulah... kita takut benda tu kat luar, rupanya dekat sini pun ada...
pandemic influenza. globalisation. people travel everyday from one place to another. and this air-borne disease is easily spread. you got nowhere to run! just hope that kita dijauhkan dari the spread of the disease.
hanif's classmate was admitted to the hospital, together with her family members. rasanya confirmed cases. they went to hong kong. my neighbour's daughter, who is also hanif's classmate pun dah admitted, suspected and not yet confirmed to have the flu. all the parents were called for an emergency meeting at the school together with timb. pengarah kesihatan negeri yesterday, and two classes in that school kena tutup including hanif's class. i was only informed today, itu pun dia ckp macam buat joke. hubbyby doesn't want me to get worried.
balik rumah... sunyi je suasana kat depan rumah. selalunya the children would play badminton and bola depan rumah. hari ni sunyi...
hanif need to use the mask, he was given a few masks at school, and he is very good at it. tidur pun pakai mask. hehe... kelakar lak, skema betul anak teruna i ni. tak pe... baguslah gitu.
so... tak bolehlah nak balik KB. original plan nak balik tonite till saturday. but since hanif is quarantined sampai sunday, kenalah stay kat rumah. but i'm not really clear about the quarantine process. kami yang lain2 ni, kiranya contact to the contact of an infected person. so, are we supposed to be quarantined too? rasanya tak lah kot... hanif pun sihat walafiat, insyallah.
anak neighbour who is now in the ward tu, selalu main ngan sofea. cuma lately... jarang main sebab sofea selalu ikut hubbyby gi kedai. hopefully tak de papelah... flu biasa je kot. i don't want to get overly worried about this. cases yang kat hospital tu semuanya stable, tak de yang teruk. hope all of them will be discharged soon.
need to create activities at home, otherwise the children would be bored. any idea? mmm... what about "mask" project - draw interesting pictures on the masks?
i licked my platter clean today, in each meal. tak percaye? the nasi lemak was so delicious... rugi ambik sikit je, yelah.. biasa makan tak abis. nak tambah takut lambat pula since turun breakfast tadi dah kul 8. esok mesti ambik lebih sikit. masa lunch pun makan licin... tapi nasi sikitlah. my dinner was nando's 1/4 chicken. makan sorang2 je. dah abis makan menyesal tak mintak 1/2 chicken. masih kelaparan! bukak minibar nampak cadbury chocolate. ahhh.... menggoda betul! i put the chocolate on the writing table, next to captain future. sungguh mengancam. but since the written charge is RM8/bar... ku batalkan niat itu. ada ketikanya aku kedekut ok. esp bila harganya tak munasabah, kena tengok the value of money spent.
i walked. yes, i didn't take the taxi, but walked to G-hotel. 15 minutes of walking at my normal pace. boleh tahan, jalan tepi pantai. sikit pun tak berpeluh. anhidrosis!
the workshop was oklah. banyak kena buat groupwork, but since we were seated around a round table, maka kami tak yah bangun berpecah2 group. i was surrounded by young girls. 4 of them are about 15 years younger than me. they are research officers/assistants. ada sorang staffnurse. all of them were very nice. sempat gak gi menyibuk kat bilik depa kat G-hotel masa lunch break.
we adjourned earlier than scheduled. 4.30 dah abis. apalagi, shopping complex kat sebelah... rugi kalau tak isi masa lapang dengan aktiviti yang berfaedah. shopping ternyata therapy yang bagus. although i was alone and never been to gurney plaza, i tak de masalah langsung. macam ada chemistry je...
hah... i went to house of leather, and got myself a Mendoza computer backpack for my true companion, captain future. expensive, but i got it at 30% discount. good quality. benda cam gini i tak beli selalu, so why not invest in a good one. no regret, i'm happy with it.
parkson is on sale. got myself 2 blouses and a beige slack. 50 to 70% discount. sofea got a shirt and a pair of jeans, and hanif got 2 shirts - all at 50% discount. good items with good bargain. the gent's dept pun ada sale, tapi tak sempat beli tadi, nak kejar waktu asar. esok masih ada...
haha.. dah penat round gurney plaza, with 3 shopping bags, rasanya dah cukup as exercise for the day. took a cab to return to my hotel. taxi fare... RM10 utk distance that took me 15 minutes to walk. crazy! but i have no choice, kaki dah lenguh and dah lewat, need to reach my room fast.
it was raining heavily just now, with thunderstorm and lightning. and the internet connection pun tak bagus. anginnya kuat sampai bersiul2 bunyinya. and i'm still hungry...
nearly 12 midnight. gotta go. need a good sleep. kaki pun lenguh-lenguh...
awesome. my room got complimentary broadband internet facilities. it was stated complimentary, so i'm assuming it's free. harap janganlah ada charges dalam bil nanti. tak rugi bawak captain future.
so how was my journey today? okaylah. cuma masa atas flight tadi, the orange juice tumpah on my brand-new coach handbag! first-time pakai. yang bagusnya... barang elok, so tak serap air and laju je mengalir on my jeans. habis basah! nasib baik black jeans.
sampai penang at around 3pm. hee... sapelah consultant yang pasang carpet kat airport ni?? tak de taste langsung! dari dulu lagi i dah perasan... belum tukar-tukar. nak pakai carpet, no problem. tapi pilihlah yang pastel color. orang baru turun kapal terbang terus nampak carpet yang bercorak serabut tu.... pening tau! international airport... kena buat facelift!
menyesal lak tak gi duduk G-hotel yang mahal tu. rupanye gurney hotel ni jauh gak dari G-hotel, jalan kaki 20 minit, kalau drive 5 minit. rasanya... sorang2 ni, eloklah i ambik taxi ke sana. my room is a studio suite. so, the room is quite big, besar sikit dari 500sq feet. facilities cukup. got in-room iron and ironing board, ada hairdryer, small dining table, broadband facilities. a separate shower cube and a bath tub. kalau bawak family... puas hatilah.
ada 2 spa kat hotel ni. ada promotion, a good one. hmm... dah buat appointment pun (hubbyby kata "boleh!"), quite cheap - for 4 spa treatment cuma RM125 (discount about RM100). cheaper as compared to awana, primula and dermalogica, and cheaper than korat's dusit princess. my appointment is on wednesday, lepas habis workshop.
mulanya ingat nak keluar gi cari makan sambil shopping, but since tempatnya jauh untuk walking distance, tak jadi keluar. order room service... tak sedap! esok kena makan kenyang2 kat G-hotel before balik bilik. another reason for not going out... kalau boleh nak avoid crowded places seboleh mungkin. 5 confirmed swine flu cases dari pharmacists' conference tu memang merisaukan sikitlah.
tv tak menarik. i tak faham kenapa hotel ni pilih cinemax and not star movies or HBO. cinemax tu banyak cerita lama2, yang zaman black and white pun ada. vision 4 pun tak de movie yang bagus. other alternatives... discovery, espn, disney, tv3 and tv7. yang lain semua cakap cina and jepun.
but i have "a painted house", by john grisham. i ni memang setia pada 3 authors ni.. grisham, archer and kinsella. ada rasa nak cuba other writers tapi tak de chemistry ngan kita. cecelia ahern tu dah berzaman i baca... belum habis! rasanya lepas ni nak cuba writers from iran or middle east pula, cerita depa banyak pasal real life and survival. i would try "the kite runner" first, pinjam kak ni punyer.
tengok gak buku melayu, konon nak support penulis kita... tapi i tengok semua tajuk ada tulis "cinta". hee... org melayu ni lemah betulla.. tak de topik lain ke? patutlah asyik ketinggalan! asyik berangan dan suka diulit mimpi. romance novels tu semuanya mengarut... khayalan semata!
mmm... best pulak tak kerja ni. yeay! enjoy it, nit!
tak tahu kenapa, mood nak menulis cam bagus je, sampai buat two entries in a row. lagipun, next few days i'll be in penang. so, layan jelah ye...
berapa kali nak sebut. i bukannya nak sangat gi penang tu. tapi since org beriya2 sgt nak antar kita, so kita gi je lah. rehatkan minda, jalan2. tapi takut gak, sebab 3 cases terbaru swine flu tu dari penang, and peserta conference for pharmacist. mintak jauhlah.... tapi kalau ape2 jadi kat i, doakan i cepat baik ye.
tengah malam semlm, the wind blows... and it brought along a cerita. tersirap darah kita. rasa macam terhiris jantungku. terkedu. kalaulah ada insan yang duduk depan kita semalam mesti boleh nampak perubahan air muka kita. palpitation sekejap. tak senang hati. baring tak kena, nak tidur pun tak leh. last2 kita bangun solat. hanya kepadaNya kita mengadu dan berserah.
tapi kenapa i sampai rasa tak tenang? tiada sedikit pun salahnya. kita sedikit pun tiada hak. kita ni bukan siapa2 pun. ntahlah... macamana i rasa semlm? rasa cam nak masuk merdeka endurance race. rasa cam nak langgar je lamp-post. rasa cam... kalaulah aku boleh fly and do the skyjump....
astaghfirullahaladzim! sabar. tenang. rasional. alhamdulillah, i woke up rasa tenang. ahh... nip it. forget it. what will be, will be. Allah knows better. pagi tadi gi manjakan diri kat dermalogica, ingatkan petang nak go for haircut, tapi dah sampai rumah... malas pulak nak keluar.
may be the working trip to penang will make me feel better. moga lebih tenang. expect the worse, but wish for the best. harap dapatlah jumpa sesuatu yang menggembirakan kat penang....
since i'm leaving to penang tomorrow, so i buat entry ni one day earlier.
July 6th - birthday my eldest sister Noral Ashikin and her grandson, Firdaus. July 7th - birthday my niece, Along (Fird's momma).
kita dengar cerita dah buat barbeque kat bangi... siap ada lamb pusing2 lagi. drooling salivalah kita kat KT.
anyway, selamat berbahagialah you all 3 beranak, 3 generasi. memang pandai korang pilih date... paling terror along sbb dapat bagi birthday present cucu kat mama.
ucapan skema utk kak ya - i really love and respect you as the eldest sister. no doubt, you have sacrificed a lot for us. banyak tolong adik2, morally and spiritually.
you are the one yang hantar i pergi masuk darjah satu dulu. ingat lagi, balik daftar kat sekolah, pergi beli chocolate cadbury. you jugak yang gi hantar i daftar kat matriks, and you were the one yang hantar i daftar masuk kat UKM, rasanya che and ayah gi mekah masa tu. rasanya you were so proud nak hantar i masuk medic dulu bcoz you were there satu masa dulu. masa i convo pun, rasanya kya yang terlebih excited and seronok nak melaram ngan jubah merah tu. biasalah... kita ni cool je. and malam after convo tu, kita celebrate makan satay kajang kat rumah tapi satu malaysia bergelap, TNB ada problem. maka, romantic dinnerlah kita malam tu. dan tak lupa, jam yang you hadiahkan bila i dapat 5A i guna sampai habis medic school, and simpan sampai la ni. sentimental value...
kak ya ni, perawan idaman kg salor. ramai peminat. menantu idaman pun ye. dan ramai yang nak berbesan ngan ayah. beruntung abg mie... bertuah arwah ayah mertua you, dapat menantu yang sanggup balik kg semata2 nak jaga dia sakit, sampai menutup mata. sejuk hati che and ayah.
walaupun masa kami study dulu, you selalu bagi advice jgn jadi mcm kak ya, we think you made the right decision. you tak rugi sedikit pun. your time was spent solely for the family. boleh pulak follow abg mie gi buat phd. you got many other talents and kebolehan yang dah memang terbukti. kalau kya nak tahu, my ultimate dream is to become a housewife... tapi dah terbiasa makan gaji, rasa semacam pula kalau tak ada org nak bank-in kan duit bulan2 sama macam i terima sekarang.
so, kak ya, nikmatilah kehidupan hari ini. anak2 semua dah besar. dah ada cucu. business pun mantap. i rasa you dah cukup segalanya. nanti kita plan gi umrah adik beradik ye... dah lama i berangan nak jln2 sama. last year ingat nak follow you gi UK, tapi i baru balik hong kong.
i remember you like to listen to this song dulu2... masa tu i kecik lagi, baru masuk sekolah. so here it is...
along - my eldest niece. semoga terus bahagia. bila nak tambah baby lagi? muda2 ni beranaklah cepat2. macam mama tu, masuk 32 terus tutup buku. along masa kecik dulu ntah kenapa suka sangat gaduh ngan enda. yelah... time tu kerja enda, mengawal budak2 kecik kat rumah che tu, and biasalah.. this young aunt memang banyak makan garam...
along masa kecik sungguh cute dan memang cantik sampai la ni. beruntung fakhri. jagalah fakhri and fird baik2. moga terus dimurahkan rezeki dan berbahagia selalu.
hidup ni ada ketikanya boring. i guess my niece, Edd was really bored that she could make a vid casted only by herself, tapi bawak 4 characters. but she's good at it.
tak caye? let's watch this:
good effort, ida! i'm sure a lot of time spent on this, the idea n script, acting and editing it, all by yourself.
hubbyby balik kampung semalam. and he brought home durians.... dari rumah mak. durian kampung memang sedap.
masa balik kb hari tu lupa lak nak tengok pokok durian ayah tu dah berbunga ke belum. durian ayah kb and durian mak besut tak sama. durian kg mak isinya kecik, kuning, lemak berkrim. durian ayah kb isinya besar, lemak manis, makan seulas pun dah kenyang. durian ayah durian kacukan siam.
kita memang hantu durian. tapi kita tak pandai nak beli durian. kalau rasa nak sangat2, baru minta hubbyby belikan. pagi tadi, rasa sangat nak makan durian tu, sampai kita bukak sendiri durian tu. dan kita masih rasa macam tak cukup.
